i want to do everything
one of my most beloved ideas which i apparently share with the Kashmir Shaivism is that all that is is the manifestation of divinity exploring and loving playing with its infinite potential by becoming it. like Lucifer, i strive to be like God. i strive to be everything. unlike the petulant child god envisioned by much of the Judeo-Christian-Islamic tradition, however, rather than smite me with eternal damnation, the great and joyful All simply baffles me by showing me in gory detail how impossible it is for little old me to be everything at once. hell, according to Kashmir Shaivism, Shiva itself does not manifest as all everything simultaneously, but rather runs an infinite number of cycles of infinite combinations of the infinite possibilities. in a sense even the divinity has many "lives" as the world is created, blossoms into fullness and falls back in on itself to be created differently again and again.
and where did this all come from? looking at green technology and policy related to the Lightning in a Bottle event and reading about the explosion of people making their own clothes and contemplating just what i'm going to do in the upcoming months. hell, in the upcoming days.
just as the divinity manifests along its own "laws of physics" i again feel the need to reign in the chaos equilibrium. and that means saying no to doing some things, saying no to being some things i have the potential to be, at least for this moment. deciding what not to be is hard.
i have rehearsal in an hour. i was planning on going to Oakland Critical Mass and then to Acroyoga, but I'm not certain I am going to do all that. I think I'll take the next half hour and meditate.
and where did this all come from? looking at green technology and policy related to the Lightning in a Bottle event and reading about the explosion of people making their own clothes and contemplating just what i'm going to do in the upcoming months. hell, in the upcoming days.
just as the divinity manifests along its own "laws of physics" i again feel the need to reign in the chaos equilibrium. and that means saying no to doing some things, saying no to being some things i have the potential to be, at least for this moment. deciding what not to be is hard.
i have rehearsal in an hour. i was planning on going to Oakland Critical Mass and then to Acroyoga, but I'm not certain I am going to do all that. I think I'll take the next half hour and meditate.