a suprizing turn of events
yeah it's me again, and yeah, i know i haven't been seen as much as usual...but alot has happened in my life i can finally say....well, there has been alot of random appearances by me than usual, which for me is uncommon...but i'm really talking about what's going on in my life, and how i am handling it...
strangely enough, although my emotions and general mood, has been extremely fluctuating, going into some really deep depressions (that sometimes hurt physically)...but i have had some very odd-feeling good times...depressions i've had before....but these highs i've been having...i've never felt this good before in quite a long time...it almost feels, like i have the ability to achieve a sense of self-confidence...(cuz i've come to the conclusion, that a lack of self-confidence is a problem i need to get over, apparently i've had this lack of confidence for some time...GO FIGURE!!!! lol/jk =P)
and i think i may have found the solution...and it does scare me a bit, cuz i hope that it is the solution, it is a brazen move on my part..and it's very scary, so i'm worried about how i will react towards it in the future, if i go through with it...but alot of you know that i've had "issues"...i think i've come to realize that these "issues" are what's realing holding me back in life...i guess an easier way to call it, is "getting personal things off my chest"...so if i got these things off my chest...call me crazy, i might have alot more faith not only in myself, but in my life and those i affect...
in a nutshell, i'm almost content about discussing these "issues" with everybody...why?...cuz i imagine what it's like to do it, and although i have a couple of doubts, the overall result is a feel-good one...
we'll see though....maybe even sooner than you think...=)
strangely enough, although my emotions and general mood, has been extremely fluctuating, going into some really deep depressions (that sometimes hurt physically)...but i have had some very odd-feeling good times...depressions i've had before....but these highs i've been having...i've never felt this good before in quite a long time...it almost feels, like i have the ability to achieve a sense of self-confidence...(cuz i've come to the conclusion, that a lack of self-confidence is a problem i need to get over, apparently i've had this lack of confidence for some time...GO FIGURE!!!! lol/jk =P)
and i think i may have found the solution...and it does scare me a bit, cuz i hope that it is the solution, it is a brazen move on my part..and it's very scary, so i'm worried about how i will react towards it in the future, if i go through with it...but alot of you know that i've had "issues"...i think i've come to realize that these "issues" are what's realing holding me back in life...i guess an easier way to call it, is "getting personal things off my chest"...so if i got these things off my chest...call me crazy, i might have alot more faith not only in myself, but in my life and those i affect...
in a nutshell, i'm almost content about discussing these "issues" with everybody...why?...cuz i imagine what it's like to do it, and although i have a couple of doubts, the overall result is a feel-good one...
we'll see though....maybe even sooner than you think...=)