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[vicioushannah]

i have already starved here,
i have already given my names away.
i have already thought all the thoughts
and written all the words
and counted all the stars and blades
of grass. I have already had you
several times a day, till
my legs shake and my breath comes
heavy (like me).

It isn't a choice, but i'm forced
to move on. I can't say goodbye,
just that I'm going, and leaving you
steeped in silence and sheets
that need so badly to be washed
of me.

-

But then, hope bathed in green light
sways in my peripheral vision.
Only for a moment am I
hard enough to leave you.
The love of others tricks me into thinking
i might find it too