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soo... decided manogamy wasnt a good idea. well... I knew it before, but decided I wasnt going to "give it a try." like I had been contemplating in fear of bry and I's jam coming to an abrupt halt. so.. yeah... i am way into him.
but when it rains, it pours...
went on the nuva ring this week and I love it. part of me feels like I'm selling out in the way that queer kids get into strait relationships and want to go on birth control kinda selling out. ohh well. anyway it just hangs out up there and doesn't come out for anything and i can't feel it or even know it's there. i've even had to check a couple of times to make sure it's still doin it's thing. i havn't had any side effects or anything but it's only been a few days. it's 20.00 a month from planned parenthood so if you had a pretty steady partner who's into helping pay it's pretty cheap, and the hope program at planned parenthood will put you on it for cheap without even having to get/pay for an exam. ofcourse.. when I say you... I mean the general you.
i've been focusing a alot on family recently. my dad and aunt moved my grandfather down here from massachussettes after he stopped eating and taking his medicine a month or two ago. he was in tucker's for a few weeks getting meds and ECTs and now he's going back and forth from my aunt's house to an assisted living facility. he's 81, and had lived in massachusettes his whole life. he's pretty amazing.
I went through and got some of my grandmother's old things with my mom and uncle last weekend. I'm looking forward to using her old cards and letters as thank you cards for the RRFP and using her spices and old food for food not bombs. I think she would have been pretty into that. I had a really intense dream about her a few weeks ago at bryan's house that made me wake up and start crying.
talking to aunts and babysitting cats and nephews and realizing yr 7 year old cousin is going to be so amazing when she gets older. folks visiting from nevada and my stepmother shooting me dirty looks and insisting on a steakhouse after finding out I was free and could go to dinner.
i mean... whatever.
oh yeah, and I'm really discontent with my activism right now, in case you couldn't tell.
but when it rains, it pours...
went on the nuva ring this week and I love it. part of me feels like I'm selling out in the way that queer kids get into strait relationships and want to go on birth control kinda selling out. ohh well. anyway it just hangs out up there and doesn't come out for anything and i can't feel it or even know it's there. i've even had to check a couple of times to make sure it's still doin it's thing. i havn't had any side effects or anything but it's only been a few days. it's 20.00 a month from planned parenthood so if you had a pretty steady partner who's into helping pay it's pretty cheap, and the hope program at planned parenthood will put you on it for cheap without even having to get/pay for an exam. ofcourse.. when I say you... I mean the general you.
i've been focusing a alot on family recently. my dad and aunt moved my grandfather down here from massachussettes after he stopped eating and taking his medicine a month or two ago. he was in tucker's for a few weeks getting meds and ECTs and now he's going back and forth from my aunt's house to an assisted living facility. he's 81, and had lived in massachusettes his whole life. he's pretty amazing.
I went through and got some of my grandmother's old things with my mom and uncle last weekend. I'm looking forward to using her old cards and letters as thank you cards for the RRFP and using her spices and old food for food not bombs. I think she would have been pretty into that. I had a really intense dream about her a few weeks ago at bryan's house that made me wake up and start crying.
talking to aunts and babysitting cats and nephews and realizing yr 7 year old cousin is going to be so amazing when she gets older. folks visiting from nevada and my stepmother shooting me dirty looks and insisting on a steakhouse after finding out I was free and could go to dinner.
i mean... whatever.
oh yeah, and I'm really discontent with my activism right now, in case you couldn't tell.