take a ride on the friendship.
so I've decided..
that I don't really like to talk to most people anymore..
I barely even like to hear my words come out of my mouth.
I really would rather not be on the phone for any long period of time
I really would rather not initiate most conversations.
I want to make money and get more tattoo's and keep every thought
to myself like I am a greedy son of bitch who thinks no one deserves
to hear me talk.. only it's not that I think I'm special or what I
have to say is important enough that anyone would want to hear it
much less that they wouldn't be privileged to hear it.. blah
It really is just that I have developed a serious social retardation
I have my moments where I love to chat it up and feel as though I am
at home in my own clever head.. but for the most part now-a-days I hate
opening my mouth.. whatever.
What am I saying?!?!
Nothing at all.. its pretty much a big race track of never ending crap
words that mean nothing and are nothing.. bleck.
So.. I am so super stoked to move to California.. even if its just for
a few months and from there I don't care. The world is my pearl-less oyster.
:)
I am aware of how negative this entry may seem and am also aware that
what I am thinking will change in a month I'm sure. I am just in
a toxic funk of Florida fuck.
I hate it here.. I have a ver few friends here and I am content with
that but hate that the ones I have I will surely soon-ly(aware) be without them
and my whole anti-phone conversation issue will not bode well for maintaining
a healthy friendship.
Anywhosel
I am going to wrap this up
I want to be asleep right now at this time which is 5:00 in the morning
and alas I am on duty but it is wrapping up soon. yay.
as is this entry.
See ya.
that I don't really like to talk to most people anymore..
I barely even like to hear my words come out of my mouth.
I really would rather not be on the phone for any long period of time
I really would rather not initiate most conversations.
I want to make money and get more tattoo's and keep every thought
to myself like I am a greedy son of bitch who thinks no one deserves
to hear me talk.. only it's not that I think I'm special or what I
have to say is important enough that anyone would want to hear it
much less that they wouldn't be privileged to hear it.. blah
It really is just that I have developed a serious social retardation
I have my moments where I love to chat it up and feel as though I am
at home in my own clever head.. but for the most part now-a-days I hate
opening my mouth.. whatever.
What am I saying?!?!
Nothing at all.. its pretty much a big race track of never ending crap
words that mean nothing and are nothing.. bleck.
So.. I am so super stoked to move to California.. even if its just for
a few months and from there I don't care. The world is my pearl-less oyster.
:)
I am aware of how negative this entry may seem and am also aware that
what I am thinking will change in a month I'm sure. I am just in
a toxic funk of Florida fuck.
I hate it here.. I have a ver few friends here and I am content with
that but hate that the ones I have I will surely soon-ly(aware) be without them
and my whole anti-phone conversation issue will not bode well for maintaining
a healthy friendship.
Anywhosel
I am going to wrap this up
I want to be asleep right now at this time which is 5:00 in the morning
and alas I am on duty but it is wrapping up soon. yay.
as is this entry.
See ya.