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Things have been okay.
I had and have a lot of problems, but i kind of realized what was causing them, it was so obvious that i forgot about it. So im glad that i at least know why i am the way i am. I know it's effecting the people around me, or i at least know that they notice, but i'm trying really hard to be better. Especially with Will, i wouldnt be able to stand knowing that our relationship was hurt because of me. Im not saying it is, but i want to make sure that it doesnt, and i'm really trying so hard.
On that note, he's in Rhode Island right now; i miss him. For some reason it's harder having him out of the state for 4 days than it was actually having a boyfriend 1000 miles away.
I went to a dermatologist a couple weeks ago, she acted like i was scary and put me on a bunch of prescriptions. Theyre okay... but i still feel like my skin is all people see when they look at me. And i feel like people would like me more if i had good skin, and my boyfriend would think i was prettier if i didnt have to wear so much makeup...yeah i wish i didnt either.
But above all the shit, i'm content with my general life. Grades are good, money is good, birthday is coming up, relationships are good, im in love...you know the deal.
I had and have a lot of problems, but i kind of realized what was causing them, it was so obvious that i forgot about it. So im glad that i at least know why i am the way i am. I know it's effecting the people around me, or i at least know that they notice, but i'm trying really hard to be better. Especially with Will, i wouldnt be able to stand knowing that our relationship was hurt because of me. Im not saying it is, but i want to make sure that it doesnt, and i'm really trying so hard.
On that note, he's in Rhode Island right now; i miss him. For some reason it's harder having him out of the state for 4 days than it was actually having a boyfriend 1000 miles away.
I went to a dermatologist a couple weeks ago, she acted like i was scary and put me on a bunch of prescriptions. Theyre okay... but i still feel like my skin is all people see when they look at me. And i feel like people would like me more if i had good skin, and my boyfriend would think i was prettier if i didnt have to wear so much makeup...yeah i wish i didnt either.
But above all the shit, i'm content with my general life. Grades are good, money is good, birthday is coming up, relationships are good, im in love...you know the deal.