I'll sell my only spinning wheel...
Well. Christmas is over. And that was that. It went well, I think. I got some nice gifts, and a very meaningful one. It really didn’t feel like Christmas though. I can’t believe it’s already over, and now we’re moving on to celebrating the New Year. And I just absolutely loathe New Year celebrations. It’s a reminder of emotions I would rather deny. Maybe this year will be different. I highly doubt it though.
Yesterday was pretty amazing. I got up earlier then normal and went to Lakeland to meet up with Kandi. We visited every store in the world, I swear! At least that’s how it felt. I didn’t buy a thing for myself, and I was highly surprised. I really need the money. Just to pay things off. I’ve too many bills to keep track of. It’s just hard… because. Do I really want to spend money on paying off bills or use Christmas money to buy myself a few items… especially when the money was given to me to use in that way.
I’m having that problem with my birthday, too. I told my mom last night that she could pick of what she wanted to do. Either she could get me presents, or she could pay off my semester’s sorority dues. Which, that’s a hell of a lot of money, but it would take off a lot of stress from me. It just sucks though, because she likes giving actual gifts and there would be a lack of that. It’s the 9th, too… which means classes will start on my birthday, and I won’t be able to do anything later unless it’s a week after. Bleh.
Hm. I’m very conflicted on where I would like to be right now. A part of me really loves being home. I get to do nothing, sleep, and just… spend time with family. But at the same time. I want to be back at school so badly.
It’s going to be weird going back. This new semester is going to be busy. Things won’t be the same because people have graduated. Paul told me the other day he had very strong feelings for me. Which. I just can’t even… Oh man. I knew it was there, I just never said anything. I could see it before I think he even knew about it. So now I have to deal with him AND Danny in the same suite. Plus.. having a secret affair with Matt that one, crazy night.. and now with Dane and his girlfriend. The only one I haven’t have a history with in the suite is Kandi’s beau… so bleh. At least I didn’t go through ALL of them. Just most. We’ll have to see how things are with Dane when he returns. I wonder if he was re-assured of his girl over break and he wont act the same.. or if it was the opposite. I’m extremely curious. He’s not been online all break, so I have no clue.
I’m talking to Leah right now. It’s weird, thinking back to the past. No wonder I don’t do it too often. Brings up old things… but at least they’re all settled, so I can look back on them and just.. learn from them.
Hm!
Yesterday was pretty amazing. I got up earlier then normal and went to Lakeland to meet up with Kandi. We visited every store in the world, I swear! At least that’s how it felt. I didn’t buy a thing for myself, and I was highly surprised. I really need the money. Just to pay things off. I’ve too many bills to keep track of. It’s just hard… because. Do I really want to spend money on paying off bills or use Christmas money to buy myself a few items… especially when the money was given to me to use in that way.
I’m having that problem with my birthday, too. I told my mom last night that she could pick of what she wanted to do. Either she could get me presents, or she could pay off my semester’s sorority dues. Which, that’s a hell of a lot of money, but it would take off a lot of stress from me. It just sucks though, because she likes giving actual gifts and there would be a lack of that. It’s the 9th, too… which means classes will start on my birthday, and I won’t be able to do anything later unless it’s a week after. Bleh.
Hm. I’m very conflicted on where I would like to be right now. A part of me really loves being home. I get to do nothing, sleep, and just… spend time with family. But at the same time. I want to be back at school so badly.
It’s going to be weird going back. This new semester is going to be busy. Things won’t be the same because people have graduated. Paul told me the other day he had very strong feelings for me. Which. I just can’t even… Oh man. I knew it was there, I just never said anything. I could see it before I think he even knew about it. So now I have to deal with him AND Danny in the same suite. Plus.. having a secret affair with Matt that one, crazy night.. and now with Dane and his girlfriend. The only one I haven’t have a history with in the suite is Kandi’s beau… so bleh. At least I didn’t go through ALL of them. Just most. We’ll have to see how things are with Dane when he returns. I wonder if he was re-assured of his girl over break and he wont act the same.. or if it was the opposite. I’m extremely curious. He’s not been online all break, so I have no clue.
I’m talking to Leah right now. It’s weird, thinking back to the past. No wonder I don’t do it too often. Brings up old things… but at least they’re all settled, so I can look back on them and just.. learn from them.
Hm!