IT IS LATE IN MORE THAN ONE WAY.
I didn't do one for last week (and probably won't) and I'm late this week 'cuz a bunch of stuff happened. Shows, loss of practice space, search for a new practice space. (We found one. We pick up the keys tomorrow and we'll start moving equipment in tomorrow night.)
Non-spoilery: I LOVE SAM AND DEAN AND CASTIEL, OKAY? AND THIS EPISODE. :P
Yes, it is entirely possible for someone to drink as much beer as they had in their room, especially when one has been building up tolerance like Dean has. I've had roommates that would drink more than this in a single night.
Is Dean destroying his liver, though? Yes.
Dean doesn't own pajamas, and he's surrounded by beer. And it makes sense for this to be on the heels of Famine (which this is - episodes 14 and 15 were flipped due to Valentine's Day shenanigans). He wants to be NUMB.
SAMMMMYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY D: D: D:
"You wanna spend the rest of your life knowing Dean Winchester's on you ass? 'Cuz I don't."
EVEN THOUGH I AM OBVIOUSLY VERY TRAUMATIZED BY SEEING SAM DEAD (again) THAT LINE PLEASES ME FAR TOO MUCH. THE REST OF THE HUNTERS KNOW THAT DEAN'S A FUCKING RUTHLESS BADASS, AND FUCK NO THEY DON'T WANT HIM ON THEIR ASSES.
"When I come back, I'm gonna be pissed." EVEN DEAN KNOWS THAT THEY'LL COME BACK ONE WAY OR ANOTHER. THAT'S JUST HOW THE WINCHESTERS ROLL.
<333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333 I HAVE NO FUCKING WORDS FOR HOW MUCH I ADORE THIS SCENE.
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Oh, Sammy. Oh, DEAN. This isn't real, but Dean's idea of heaven? "Dad would never let us do anything like this. Thanks, Dean."
DEAN, YOUR CODEPENDENCY IS SHOWING.
LOOK HOW FUCKING HAPPY THEY ARE. THIS ALSO BREAKS MY HEART, BUT OMG THE SMIIIIIILES. <33333
Side note: I just burnt the roof of my mouth on some fucking pizza. Fuck.
So many things I love (or hate, or get some kind of strong emotional reaction to) about this entire exchange Dean has with Castiel on the radio:
1. Cas says "yeah, it's me." Cas says YEAH. He's starting to talk differently. He's been hanging out with Winchesters, and his speech is getting less stilted and foreign sounding, and he's starting to sound... dare I fucking say it? Human.
2. CAS-PALA. DEAN/CAS-PALA OTP FOREVER. HOLY CRAP, GUYS, IT'S MY TWO BIGGEST SPN PAIRINGS RIGHT FUCKING HERE.
3. "You've gotta stop poking around in my dreams. I need some me time." AHAHAHAHAHHA. DEAN, HAT THE HELL ARE YOU IMPLYING HERE? IS CAS POKING AROUND IN YOUR DREAMS OFTEN? WHAT IS HE DOING IN YOUR HEAD, HMMMM? Or are you just having crazy sexy-tiem dreams about Cas?
4. This flash-to-being-dead shot: obviously not from Dean or Sam's POV. I'm going to imagine that Cas is standing over them being very sad and worried while he's hacking into radio signals. Even though he's not 'cuz he probably doesn't know where they are. Shut up.
5. "I'm dead." "Condolences." XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD RADIO!CAS, I <3 YOU.
6. "How did I get to Heaven?" And Dean sounds fucking FREAKED OUT about that. I mean, yeah - he's probably a tad freaked about dying (again), but he's also freaked about being in HEAVEN. Is he freaked because he knows there are some scary fucking angels up there? Or is he freaked because he thinks he doesn't belong there?
7. Dean's also freaked because he has no idea where Sam is. "If I'm Heaven, then where's Sam?" I'm not going to spell out what Dean's thinking here, because we all know he doesn't really believe that Sam would go somewhere else. He just doesn't know how Heaven works. :P
BUT HE'S IN HEAVEN WITH THE IMPALA. <3
I think this shot/effect was slightly out of place since Heaven is apparently supposed to be Dean's perception, but IT'S REALLY FUCKING PRETTY, OKAY?
On the other hand, the fast-moving, super starry celestial heavens in Heaven are growing on me just because they're really cool looking. Also, the sky didn't start doing freaky shit until Castiel TOLD Dean he was in Heaven, so maybe Dean's perception shifted to what he thinks the sky in Heaven should do.
BRACES GIRL WAS CUTE UNTIL SHE STARTED BEING FREAKY AND GRABBING SAMMY ON THE THIGH RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER FUCKING DAD. D:
LOL AT THIS SHOT.
But oh, GOD, Sammy. DEAN is the one with all the self-esteem issues, hun. The knowledge that he's Lucifer's vessel and that he has all these ~ties~ to Lucifer must be really, really fucking with him.
He was already feeling guilt of the EXTREME, what with the starting the apocalypse and killing a girl to do it and that whole fucking shebang, but the thought that Sam is absolutely fucking certain that he's destined for Hell? Fuck, Sammy. D:
Dean makes some good faces in this episode. But Deeeean. Being offended that Sam thought a real Thanksgiving was better than the one you gave him? Your issues are showing again. I'm sure I'm going to get into Dean's grumpiness at Sam's Heaven later, so I'll refrain from starting here.
HOWEVER, I'll just say THIS right fucking now instead, since the one or two episode reactions I did see involved people saying "WHAT THE FUCK" at Sam's characterization because all of his happy places are away from Dean: uh... WHAT? No, seriously. SINCE WHEN HAS SAM HAD ANY HAPPY MEMORIES INVOLVING HIS FAMILY? Right from the very beginning of the show, we could see that being AWAY from his family was exactly what he wanted. His original revenge was for JESSICA - his life OUTSIDE of his family being taken away from him. SAM'S HAPPINESS MAKES COMPLETE SENSE, AND IT ALSO DOESN'T MAKE HIM A HORRIBLE PERSON. D:
DEAN STARTS POUNDING ON RADIOS AND YELLING FOR CAS, AND SAM THINKS HIS BROTHER HAS LOST HIS MIND. XD
AND DEAN IS ANNOYED. \O/ "GODDAMN IT, SAM, I KNOW HOW TO TALK TO MY OWN BOYFRIEND. I'M NOT FUCKING CRAZY."
SIDE NOTE: THERE ARE A MILLION FIREWORKS GOING OFF OUTSIDE MY HOUSE RIGHT NOW. I CAN UNDERSTAND CELEBRATING U.S. INDEPENDENCE DAY BY BLOWING SHIT UP, BUT I REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND CELEBRATING THE RESURRECTION OF JESUS BY BLOWING SHIT UP.
Okay, I took about a half hour break to watch the celebration of the resurrection of Jesus Christ by blowing shit up and shooting fireworks off in the middle of the fucking intersection.
Anyway.
I know that the static and snow Cas is talking through is supposed to be all eerie and offsetting, BUT IT'S JUST FUCKING HILARIOUS, OKAY? HE'S ALL WAVY AND FUNNY LOOKING AND LOOK WHERE HIS NOSE IS. XD
LOOK HOW RELIEVED DEAN IS TO SEE HIM. <3
CAS: "DON'T GO INTO THE LIGHT."
SAM: O_O
DEAN: O_O
DEAN: "WE ARE KINDA ASS-FULL OF ANGELS."
... NO FUCKING COMMENT.
CASTIEL, YOUR FACE IS VERY LARGE.
"I can't return to Heaven." And Dean instantly feels bad for yelling at him. :(
And AGAIN with Castiel talking more like a human. He's being sarcastic, he's cussing, and he's fucking PISSED. D:
Dean's all about finding God now, too. Let's go back to that prayer we had in the (actual) previous episode. Dean's literal last fucking hope is God, so yeah - God IS the only one who can help. Oh, fuck, this episode.
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. SAMMY'S FACE AND FINGER OF CONFUSION.
AGAIN, DEAN WITH THE CONFUSING OF SAM WITH YOUR WEIRDO-NESS OF TALKING TO YOUR RADIO BOYFRIEND AND LOOKING FOR ROADS IN CLOSETS AND ACTING LIKE IT'S THE MOST NATURAL THING EVER. <33333333
You can instantly tell something weird is going on, just because of Dean's shoes. XD
SAM'S MAKING SOME GOOD FACES TOO. <3
OMG, MARY IS PRETTY. <3
Okay, here we go. Dean, holy fucking SHIT, this part is fucking huge.
I've always thought that Dean's codependency issues started developing while Dean was at left behind with Sam and taking care of Sam. But they actually started before Mary even died - we're going to assume that he's gotta be three or four here, because Mary mentions "two boys at home," meaning Sam's already born. He's THAT young, and he's already stepping up and comforting his mother. "I'll never leave you." It started with MARY, not SAM. HOLY FUCK.
And the bigger part of this? This is a HAPPY memory for Dean. "They don't need you. Not like you need them." Dean needs to be needed. His parents fighting and him stepping up and comforting his mother is happy to him. His being needed by his family DEFINES him. Or he thinks it does. Tie this in with the other happy memory we saw of Dean, with Sam thinking how fucking AWESOME Dean is for stepping up and bringing him something John never would, and JESUS FUCKING CHRIST, Dean. You fell right back into it. You fell right back into being needed. And now the whole fucking world needs you and it's just too fucking big, and you want to go back to just being needed by your family. Your parents fighting is something HAPPY for you? OMG, DEAN. D:
And Sammy's happy memory? "I was on my own for two weeks." ON HIS OWN. INDEPENDENT. This does NOT make him horrible. It means he wanted to be his own fucking person. He was young and didn't do it in the smartest way ever, but this was one of his first tastes of independence.
But... hoooollly shit. I've never entirely bought the idea that John ever got angry enough at Dean to punish him physically, but the fear in Dean's eyes when he mentions "when Dad came home" to find that Sam had run away while Dean was looking after him? Totally makes me think otherwise.
"Dean! Road. God. Remember?" Sam, you suck at derailing your brother when he's on to something.
And yup, here we go: Sam's memories of his family mostly involve their father, or his brother being heavily influenced by their father. Dean at least has memories of their mother smiling at him, getting his crusts cut off his PB&J. Sam doesn't have that. Yes, Sam's happiness is going to be AWAY from his family. Because his family is FUCKED UP.
AHHHHHHH CRAZY ANGEL DEATH LIGHT D: D: D:
Eh, the whole running away from Zachariah thing kinda bored me, actually. Even if I do enjoy seeing the boys run.
Except Zachariah is such a MB. "Wow. Running from angels. On foot. In Heaven." I do enjoy it when he's snarky.
LOLOLOL WINCHESTERS RESCUED BY A MEXICAN WRESTLER XDDDDDDDDDDD
DR. BADASS THE MEXICAN WRESTLER XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I didn't take this "soulmates" thing as a Wincest-y moment, actually. More like the opposite, since Dean and Sam wound up in different places, originally.
LOL AT DEAN'S FACE WHEN ASH TELLS HIM HE'S BEEN HANGING OUT WITH JOHNNY CASH IN HEAVEN.
... he sucks at fake typing. you need to do more than wiggle your fingers. -_-
Pamela and Dean. Never really shipped 'em, but they're cute. Especially because of Pamela's Ramones shirt.
1. Dean has a point - Heaven apparently IS lonely.
2. That's the first thing Dean thinks of when he sees how Heaven is actually set up. No one around to rely on him. Hmm.
If Michael takes Dean, a lot of people die. "And then they come here!" We're getting closer and closer, folks. Dean's totally saying "yes." (My perception of this might be colored because I really wanna see Michael!Dean. I admit that.)
And because of this, I now think Pamela is actually Michael. This is probably because my head is just that fucked up.
LOLOL, POOR SAMANTHA SMITH. SHE SURE HAS TO WEAR A LOT OF BLOODY NIGHTGOWNS ON THIS SHOW. Also, this is random (especially since this obviously isn't Mary, anyway), but I'd always thought that Mary's soul was just GONE. Her spirit destroyed itself in the first season. That's why they're not going to find her in Heaven.
THE ZACH AND MARY THING WAS FUCKING CREEPY AS FUCKING HELL. CREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPYYYYYYYY
But this made me LOL: "In Heaven I have six wings and four faces, one of which is a LION." WHAT.
I love how ANGRY Zach gets in this episode, though, and his voice is just RINGING, and then Joshua shows up, and somehow his soft-spoken, polite manner is a thousand times louder than Zachariah's.
DYING, DYING DYING DYING DYING DYING DYING
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA DEAN AND SAM'S VISION OF THE GARDEN OF EDEN/GOD'S THRONE ROOM IS THE FUCKING CLEVELAND BOTANICAL GARDENS AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
BOYS, YOU REALLY ARE INCREDIBLY FUCKED UP IF HEAVEN IS IN FUCKING CLEVELAND IN YOUR HEADS.
I ALSO FLIPPED OUT FOR A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME BECAUSE WHEREVER THEY'RE FILMING THAT SERIOUSLY DOES LOOK LIKE THE CBG. LIKE, IT LOOKS A HELLUVA LOT LIKE THE LOWER PART OF THE FUCKING BUTTERFLY ROOM (WHICH IS HILARIOUS IN AND OF ITSELF). BUT I PULLED SOME OLD PICTURES I TOOK THERE AND THE STYLE OF THE WINDOWS ARE A BIT DIFFERENT, JUST TO CONFIRM TO MYSELF THAT THERE REALLY IS SOMEPLACE IN VANCOUVER THAT LOOKS THAT MUCH LIKE CLEVELAND.
Holy shit, God doesn't give a fuck.
I... um. Don't really have much to say about that. (I'm not atheist, by the way - I'm agnostic. This might be why I don't give a fuck about God not giving a fuck.) I dunno, maybe I do have something to say about it. Joshua said "you're losing faith in yourself." Honestly, I'm agnostic and don't really think about it much, because I feel like believing in yourself is WAY more important than believing in a higher power that's going to come down and save you. Maybe this is God's way of building character in his sons? O_o
Anyway. I LOVE THAT THEY COME BACK TO LIFE AND THE FIRST THING DEAN DOES IS CALL CAS. <333 But, oh, GOD, what Dean's gonna have to tell him...
And Cas is just BROKEN. D:
Gratuitous shot of Dean staring soulfully at Cas #1.
Gratuitous shot of Dean staring soulfully concernedly at Cas #2.
HEY GOD, YOUR SON IS FUCKING PISSED OFF AT YOU, YOU ASSWIPE.
Again with Cas talking different. The way he said "I don't need this anymore." There's something more... fluid about it. Less stilted. It's unsettling, dudes.
TEAM FREE WILL IS ALL BROKEN AND SHIT, GUYS. D:
NRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH. DEAN DOESN'T UNDERSTAND SAM. SAM DOESN'T UNDERSTAND DEAN. DEAN'S GIVING UP ON EVERYTHING, INCLUDING SAM. FUCK, GUYS.
Fuck.
Holy crap, I'm going to bed.
Non-spoilery: I LOVE SAM AND DEAN AND CASTIEL, OKAY? AND THIS EPISODE. :P
Yes, it is entirely possible for someone to drink as much beer as they had in their room, especially when one has been building up tolerance like Dean has. I've had roommates that would drink more than this in a single night.
Is Dean destroying his liver, though? Yes.
Dean doesn't own pajamas, and he's surrounded by beer. And it makes sense for this to be on the heels of Famine (which this is - episodes 14 and 15 were flipped due to Valentine's Day shenanigans). He wants to be NUMB.
SAMMMMYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY D: D: D:
"You wanna spend the rest of your life knowing Dean Winchester's on you ass? 'Cuz I don't."
EVEN THOUGH I AM OBVIOUSLY VERY TRAUMATIZED BY SEEING SAM DEAD (again) THAT LINE PLEASES ME FAR TOO MUCH. THE REST OF THE HUNTERS KNOW THAT DEAN'S A FUCKING RUTHLESS BADASS, AND FUCK NO THEY DON'T WANT HIM ON THEIR ASSES.
"When I come back, I'm gonna be pissed." EVEN DEAN KNOWS THAT THEY'LL COME BACK ONE WAY OR ANOTHER. THAT'S JUST HOW THE WINCHESTERS ROLL.
<333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333 I HAVE NO FUCKING WORDS FOR HOW MUCH I ADORE THIS SCENE.
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Oh, Sammy. Oh, DEAN. This isn't real, but Dean's idea of heaven? "Dad would never let us do anything like this. Thanks, Dean."
DEAN, YOUR CODEPENDENCY IS SHOWING.
LOOK HOW FUCKING HAPPY THEY ARE. THIS ALSO BREAKS MY HEART, BUT OMG THE SMIIIIIILES. <33333
Side note: I just burnt the roof of my mouth on some fucking pizza. Fuck.
So many things I love (or hate, or get some kind of strong emotional reaction to) about this entire exchange Dean has with Castiel on the radio:
1. Cas says "yeah, it's me." Cas says YEAH. He's starting to talk differently. He's been hanging out with Winchesters, and his speech is getting less stilted and foreign sounding, and he's starting to sound... dare I fucking say it? Human.
2. CAS-PALA. DEAN/CAS-PALA OTP FOREVER. HOLY CRAP, GUYS, IT'S MY TWO BIGGEST SPN PAIRINGS RIGHT FUCKING HERE.
3. "You've gotta stop poking around in my dreams. I need some me time." AHAHAHAHAHHA. DEAN, HAT THE HELL ARE YOU IMPLYING HERE? IS CAS POKING AROUND IN YOUR DREAMS OFTEN? WHAT IS HE DOING IN YOUR HEAD, HMMMM? Or are you just having crazy sexy-tiem dreams about Cas?
4. This flash-to-being-dead shot: obviously not from Dean or Sam's POV. I'm going to imagine that Cas is standing over them being very sad and worried while he's hacking into radio signals. Even though he's not 'cuz he probably doesn't know where they are. Shut up.
5. "I'm dead." "Condolences." XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD RADIO!CAS, I <3 YOU.
6. "How did I get to Heaven?" And Dean sounds fucking FREAKED OUT about that. I mean, yeah - he's probably a tad freaked about dying (again), but he's also freaked about being in HEAVEN. Is he freaked because he knows there are some scary fucking angels up there? Or is he freaked because he thinks he doesn't belong there?
7. Dean's also freaked because he has no idea where Sam is. "If I'm Heaven, then where's Sam?" I'm not going to spell out what Dean's thinking here, because we all know he doesn't really believe that Sam would go somewhere else. He just doesn't know how Heaven works. :P
BUT HE'S IN HEAVEN WITH THE IMPALA. <3
I think this shot/effect was slightly out of place since Heaven is apparently supposed to be Dean's perception, but IT'S REALLY FUCKING PRETTY, OKAY?
On the other hand, the fast-moving, super starry celestial heavens in Heaven are growing on me just because they're really cool looking. Also, the sky didn't start doing freaky shit until Castiel TOLD Dean he was in Heaven, so maybe Dean's perception shifted to what he thinks the sky in Heaven should do.
BRACES GIRL WAS CUTE UNTIL SHE STARTED BEING FREAKY AND GRABBING SAMMY ON THE THIGH RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER FUCKING DAD. D:
LOL AT THIS SHOT.
But oh, GOD, Sammy. DEAN is the one with all the self-esteem issues, hun. The knowledge that he's Lucifer's vessel and that he has all these ~ties~ to Lucifer must be really, really fucking with him.
He was already feeling guilt of the EXTREME, what with the starting the apocalypse and killing a girl to do it and that whole fucking shebang, but the thought that Sam is absolutely fucking certain that he's destined for Hell? Fuck, Sammy. D:
Dean makes some good faces in this episode. But Deeeean. Being offended that Sam thought a real Thanksgiving was better than the one you gave him? Your issues are showing again. I'm sure I'm going to get into Dean's grumpiness at Sam's Heaven later, so I'll refrain from starting here.
HOWEVER, I'll just say THIS right fucking now instead, since the one or two episode reactions I did see involved people saying "WHAT THE FUCK" at Sam's characterization because all of his happy places are away from Dean: uh... WHAT? No, seriously. SINCE WHEN HAS SAM HAD ANY HAPPY MEMORIES INVOLVING HIS FAMILY? Right from the very beginning of the show, we could see that being AWAY from his family was exactly what he wanted. His original revenge was for JESSICA - his life OUTSIDE of his family being taken away from him. SAM'S HAPPINESS MAKES COMPLETE SENSE, AND IT ALSO DOESN'T MAKE HIM A HORRIBLE PERSON. D:
DEAN STARTS POUNDING ON RADIOS AND YELLING FOR CAS, AND SAM THINKS HIS BROTHER HAS LOST HIS MIND. XD
AND DEAN IS ANNOYED. \O/ "GODDAMN IT, SAM, I KNOW HOW TO TALK TO MY OWN BOYFRIEND. I'M NOT FUCKING CRAZY."
SIDE NOTE: THERE ARE A MILLION FIREWORKS GOING OFF OUTSIDE MY HOUSE RIGHT NOW. I CAN UNDERSTAND CELEBRATING U.S. INDEPENDENCE DAY BY BLOWING SHIT UP, BUT I REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND CELEBRATING THE RESURRECTION OF JESUS BY BLOWING SHIT UP.
Okay, I took about a half hour break to watch the celebration of the resurrection of Jesus Christ by blowing shit up and shooting fireworks off in the middle of the fucking intersection.
Anyway.
I know that the static and snow Cas is talking through is supposed to be all eerie and offsetting, BUT IT'S JUST FUCKING HILARIOUS, OKAY? HE'S ALL WAVY AND FUNNY LOOKING AND LOOK WHERE HIS NOSE IS. XD
LOOK HOW RELIEVED DEAN IS TO SEE HIM. <3
CAS: "DON'T GO INTO THE LIGHT."
SAM: O_O
DEAN: O_O
DEAN: "WE ARE KINDA ASS-FULL OF ANGELS."
... NO FUCKING COMMENT.
CASTIEL, YOUR FACE IS VERY LARGE.
"I can't return to Heaven." And Dean instantly feels bad for yelling at him. :(
And AGAIN with Castiel talking more like a human. He's being sarcastic, he's cussing, and he's fucking PISSED. D:
Dean's all about finding God now, too. Let's go back to that prayer we had in the (actual) previous episode. Dean's literal last fucking hope is God, so yeah - God IS the only one who can help. Oh, fuck, this episode.
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. SAMMY'S FACE AND FINGER OF CONFUSION.
AGAIN, DEAN WITH THE CONFUSING OF SAM WITH YOUR WEIRDO-NESS OF TALKING TO YOUR RADIO BOYFRIEND AND LOOKING FOR ROADS IN CLOSETS AND ACTING LIKE IT'S THE MOST NATURAL THING EVER. <33333333
You can instantly tell something weird is going on, just because of Dean's shoes. XD
SAM'S MAKING SOME GOOD FACES TOO. <3
OMG, MARY IS PRETTY. <3
Okay, here we go. Dean, holy fucking SHIT, this part is fucking huge.
I've always thought that Dean's codependency issues started developing while Dean was at left behind with Sam and taking care of Sam. But they actually started before Mary even died - we're going to assume that he's gotta be three or four here, because Mary mentions "two boys at home," meaning Sam's already born. He's THAT young, and he's already stepping up and comforting his mother. "I'll never leave you." It started with MARY, not SAM. HOLY FUCK.
And the bigger part of this? This is a HAPPY memory for Dean. "They don't need you. Not like you need them." Dean needs to be needed. His parents fighting and him stepping up and comforting his mother is happy to him. His being needed by his family DEFINES him. Or he thinks it does. Tie this in with the other happy memory we saw of Dean, with Sam thinking how fucking AWESOME Dean is for stepping up and bringing him something John never would, and JESUS FUCKING CHRIST, Dean. You fell right back into it. You fell right back into being needed. And now the whole fucking world needs you and it's just too fucking big, and you want to go back to just being needed by your family. Your parents fighting is something HAPPY for you? OMG, DEAN. D:
And Sammy's happy memory? "I was on my own for two weeks." ON HIS OWN. INDEPENDENT. This does NOT make him horrible. It means he wanted to be his own fucking person. He was young and didn't do it in the smartest way ever, but this was one of his first tastes of independence.
But... hoooollly shit. I've never entirely bought the idea that John ever got angry enough at Dean to punish him physically, but the fear in Dean's eyes when he mentions "when Dad came home" to find that Sam had run away while Dean was looking after him? Totally makes me think otherwise.
"Dean! Road. God. Remember?" Sam, you suck at derailing your brother when he's on to something.
And yup, here we go: Sam's memories of his family mostly involve their father, or his brother being heavily influenced by their father. Dean at least has memories of their mother smiling at him, getting his crusts cut off his PB&J. Sam doesn't have that. Yes, Sam's happiness is going to be AWAY from his family. Because his family is FUCKED UP.
AHHHHHHH CRAZY ANGEL DEATH LIGHT D: D: D:
Eh, the whole running away from Zachariah thing kinda bored me, actually. Even if I do enjoy seeing the boys run.
Except Zachariah is such a MB. "Wow. Running from angels. On foot. In Heaven." I do enjoy it when he's snarky.
LOLOLOL WINCHESTERS RESCUED BY A MEXICAN WRESTLER XDDDDDDDDDDD
DR. BADASS THE MEXICAN WRESTLER XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I didn't take this "soulmates" thing as a Wincest-y moment, actually. More like the opposite, since Dean and Sam wound up in different places, originally.
LOL AT DEAN'S FACE WHEN ASH TELLS HIM HE'S BEEN HANGING OUT WITH JOHNNY CASH IN HEAVEN.
... he sucks at fake typing. you need to do more than wiggle your fingers. -_-
Pamela and Dean. Never really shipped 'em, but they're cute. Especially because of Pamela's Ramones shirt.
1. Dean has a point - Heaven apparently IS lonely.
2. That's the first thing Dean thinks of when he sees how Heaven is actually set up. No one around to rely on him. Hmm.
If Michael takes Dean, a lot of people die. "And then they come here!" We're getting closer and closer, folks. Dean's totally saying "yes." (My perception of this might be colored because I really wanna see Michael!Dean. I admit that.)
And because of this, I now think Pamela is actually Michael. This is probably because my head is just that fucked up.
LOLOL, POOR SAMANTHA SMITH. SHE SURE HAS TO WEAR A LOT OF BLOODY NIGHTGOWNS ON THIS SHOW. Also, this is random (especially since this obviously isn't Mary, anyway), but I'd always thought that Mary's soul was just GONE. Her spirit destroyed itself in the first season. That's why they're not going to find her in Heaven.
THE ZACH AND MARY THING WAS FUCKING CREEPY AS FUCKING HELL. CREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPYYYYYYYY
But this made me LOL: "In Heaven I have six wings and four faces, one of which is a LION." WHAT.
I love how ANGRY Zach gets in this episode, though, and his voice is just RINGING, and then Joshua shows up, and somehow his soft-spoken, polite manner is a thousand times louder than Zachariah's.
DYING, DYING DYING DYING DYING DYING DYING
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA DEAN AND SAM'S VISION OF THE GARDEN OF EDEN/GOD'S THRONE ROOM IS THE FUCKING CLEVELAND BOTANICAL GARDENS AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
BOYS, YOU REALLY ARE INCREDIBLY FUCKED UP IF HEAVEN IS IN FUCKING CLEVELAND IN YOUR HEADS.
I ALSO FLIPPED OUT FOR A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME BECAUSE WHEREVER THEY'RE FILMING THAT SERIOUSLY DOES LOOK LIKE THE CBG. LIKE, IT LOOKS A HELLUVA LOT LIKE THE LOWER PART OF THE FUCKING BUTTERFLY ROOM (WHICH IS HILARIOUS IN AND OF ITSELF). BUT I PULLED SOME OLD PICTURES I TOOK THERE AND THE STYLE OF THE WINDOWS ARE A BIT DIFFERENT, JUST TO CONFIRM TO MYSELF THAT THERE REALLY IS SOMEPLACE IN VANCOUVER THAT LOOKS THAT MUCH LIKE CLEVELAND.
Holy shit, God doesn't give a fuck.
I... um. Don't really have much to say about that. (I'm not atheist, by the way - I'm agnostic. This might be why I don't give a fuck about God not giving a fuck.) I dunno, maybe I do have something to say about it. Joshua said "you're losing faith in yourself." Honestly, I'm agnostic and don't really think about it much, because I feel like believing in yourself is WAY more important than believing in a higher power that's going to come down and save you. Maybe this is God's way of building character in his sons? O_o
Anyway. I LOVE THAT THEY COME BACK TO LIFE AND THE FIRST THING DEAN DOES IS CALL CAS. <333 But, oh, GOD, what Dean's gonna have to tell him...
And Cas is just BROKEN. D:
Gratuitous shot of Dean staring soulfully at Cas #1.
Gratuitous shot of Dean staring soulfully concernedly at Cas #2.
HEY GOD, YOUR SON IS FUCKING PISSED OFF AT YOU, YOU ASSWIPE.
Again with Cas talking different. The way he said "I don't need this anymore." There's something more... fluid about it. Less stilted. It's unsettling, dudes.
TEAM FREE WILL IS ALL BROKEN AND SHIT, GUYS. D:
NRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH. DEAN DOESN'T UNDERSTAND SAM. SAM DOESN'T UNDERSTAND DEAN. DEAN'S GIVING UP ON EVERYTHING, INCLUDING SAM. FUCK, GUYS.
Fuck.
Holy crap, I'm going to bed.