D.I.S.C.O
I'm in a good mood today. Yesterday I considered posting but then realised that I tend to always post in hung over/rotten states and so decided against it. All I would've done is banged on about I would've been craving a falafel or something like that. Talking of which I really need to do something about my falafel problem. Last time I went into Moaz the guy read out my order before I even had time to say it and yesterday in Just Falaffs I ended engaged in a ten minute conversation with the staff. I fear they know way too much now. I will be attending Beatroot today for fake sausage rolls.
Had a gig at Black Balloon on Wednesday which I very much enjoyed bar some crazy loud bass action at the beginning but we've had some good feedback so it made me happy. Any feedback is good, I only fear silence and find if people don't say anything I just freak more. I really don't mind if it's not some-ones cup of tea.
The band stuff has been picking up pace recently and I find my slowly being invited into these weird circles. This week I have regularly met the Klaxons, the Horrors, Nitzerebb, Arthur Baker and more tellingly both the Geldof girls. All very nice people but I have to stay away. I always feel fraudulent when around people involved in music. When I was younger I went through a space of going to loads of aftershows and crap like that but in the end I was questioning why I was even there. Being on the edge of this scene drives me crazy, it's full of hopes of someone already 'there' helping you join it and honestly after years of gigging about and writing you can sometimes feel that's all you want. Whenever I'm questioned by people in the industry as to what I actually do, I just say I'm a groupie. They tend to laugh but it's just how I feel and I hate myself for it. Of course there is nothing magical about being inside this 'circle' I should really question whether being a part of it makes you a musician. I will always write and produce regardless of their inclusion, but maybe I'll feel more comfortable if I had some work for someone to have an opinion of only then I'll feel vindicated. Words are very important to me, if no one says anything about what you do then really what's the point? This really applies to any work you do and why i'm feeling down at my day job.
On an entirely different note I had my first piece of writing available to the masses in years. I used to write for Penthouse (yes they did have writing and I know it's not the benchmark of writing) but I've started freelance for IGN.com and have begun with a preview of the new series of Doctor Who. It's available here. www.ign.com (look for the Doctor who feature)
Would love to know your thoughts....heh.
Had a gig at Black Balloon on Wednesday which I very much enjoyed bar some crazy loud bass action at the beginning but we've had some good feedback so it made me happy. Any feedback is good, I only fear silence and find if people don't say anything I just freak more. I really don't mind if it's not some-ones cup of tea.
The band stuff has been picking up pace recently and I find my slowly being invited into these weird circles. This week I have regularly met the Klaxons, the Horrors, Nitzerebb, Arthur Baker and more tellingly both the Geldof girls. All very nice people but I have to stay away. I always feel fraudulent when around people involved in music. When I was younger I went through a space of going to loads of aftershows and crap like that but in the end I was questioning why I was even there. Being on the edge of this scene drives me crazy, it's full of hopes of someone already 'there' helping you join it and honestly after years of gigging about and writing you can sometimes feel that's all you want. Whenever I'm questioned by people in the industry as to what I actually do, I just say I'm a groupie. They tend to laugh but it's just how I feel and I hate myself for it. Of course there is nothing magical about being inside this 'circle' I should really question whether being a part of it makes you a musician. I will always write and produce regardless of their inclusion, but maybe I'll feel more comfortable if I had some work for someone to have an opinion of only then I'll feel vindicated. Words are very important to me, if no one says anything about what you do then really what's the point? This really applies to any work you do and why i'm feeling down at my day job.
On an entirely different note I had my first piece of writing available to the masses in years. I used to write for Penthouse (yes they did have writing and I know it's not the benchmark of writing) but I've started freelance for IGN.com and have begun with a preview of the new series of Doctor Who. It's available here. www.ign.com (look for the Doctor who feature)
Would love to know your thoughts....heh.