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adam met this girl dayna, i guess she's a server at applebees, he said she's pretty hot and they started talking one night and exchanged phone numbers and whatnot and they went out the other night... i dont know why but this is driving me crazy! well.. i do know why... im just jealous because i want all of his attention obviously... i want him to still want just me... thats why.. but its so stupid. i just cant help feeling that way. apparently she's like a huge slut though, like she is married (but going thru a divorce) and she has already slept with 3 different guys from applebees. so adam says that most likely nothiing will happen between them. 1. because he doesnt want to be with someone like that (and she has a 2yr old kid and he doesnt wanna deal with that) and 2. because he's still stuck on me. and because he thinks that me and mark are not going to last very long, he's hoping to get back together with me once mark and i break up... *rolls eyes* i suppose if mark and i really did break up i would CONSIDER getting back with adam.. because i am realizing now that i do miss him... and that was even before he told me about dayna.. lol. and i actually considered not even trying to get back together with mark at one point... but then i realized i at least have to TRY. because if i dont i know i will regret it forever.. and always wonder if it would have worked out. and i am beginning to have more faith in it also... realizing that it depends a lot more on me than i thought it did. i thought it would be mostly up to whether or not mark can change the way he is.. but it is a lot more up to me too. so hopefully we can work things out. i just love him so much... i want it to work soooo badly....
i dont wanna go back to school today... i wish i could just stay home and mark could stay home and we could just spend every single day together :( it would make me so happy
steve kissed me! on 2 different occasions. it was pretty fucked up. i stopped him and i was like what the hell why are you doing that! he "didnt know" he said it just felt right. and then i was like well what about you and laura i thought you were getting back together with her! and he said he didnt know what was going on with that anymore. then i was like i thought you were completely over me!! "i just dont know anymore..." is what he said. what a dumbass. then he said it wouldnt happen again.. and of course it did! THEN like the next day i think it was.. we went into the student union to sign up for housing for next year and him and laura were in there in line... and steve was all over her! he had his arms around her and was kissing her and stuff. so later on i mentioned it to him but i had to make it sound completely NOT jealous because i figured he would automatically assume i was just saying it because i was jealous. surprisingly he didnt. but i said i thought you didnt know what was goin on with her! "i dont.." well then why were you all over her! "i wasnt.." ..... yeah ok.... he's fucking stupid...
and i really dont want to talk to him very much anymore
i dont wanna go back to school today... i wish i could just stay home and mark could stay home and we could just spend every single day together :( it would make me so happy
steve kissed me! on 2 different occasions. it was pretty fucked up. i stopped him and i was like what the hell why are you doing that! he "didnt know" he said it just felt right. and then i was like well what about you and laura i thought you were getting back together with her! and he said he didnt know what was going on with that anymore. then i was like i thought you were completely over me!! "i just dont know anymore..." is what he said. what a dumbass. then he said it wouldnt happen again.. and of course it did! THEN like the next day i think it was.. we went into the student union to sign up for housing for next year and him and laura were in there in line... and steve was all over her! he had his arms around her and was kissing her and stuff. so later on i mentioned it to him but i had to make it sound completely NOT jealous because i figured he would automatically assume i was just saying it because i was jealous. surprisingly he didnt. but i said i thought you didnt know what was goin on with her! "i dont.." well then why were you all over her! "i wasnt.." ..... yeah ok.... he's fucking stupid...
and i really dont want to talk to him very much anymore