LIFE: "I HATE EVERYONE (but not really everyone)" mood
I can't believe I'm still pissed off at what I encountered yesterday @.@
I really don't mind when people come at my fangirling tweets just because what I said doesn't satisfy them (I guess) and correct according to their liking my harmless fangirling opinion (w/c is weird coz YOU DO YOU) in my SixTONES account. I mean I guess there are fans who are really like that so I'm just trying to ignore them.
Then the other day, I briefly mentioned SixTONES in my 7 MEN 侍 account. The next thing I knew, an elitist SixTONES fan came at me and my friend and lectured us about SixTONES @.@ we didn't even say anything harmful @.@ 7 MEN 侍 didn't even do anything bad @.@ I just wanted for my friend and I to continue our conversation and excitement over 7 MEN 侍 =((
It felt so rude, I felt wronged, and I felt 7 MEN 侍 got somewhat belittled 😤 (although this may be a super subjective, but I can't help but be protective over them)
At that moment, I thought "SixTONES fans are scary" and "I hate everyone (of course not really everyone"
It feels disgusting that there are fans like that, worse, I am in the same fandom as with them 🥴
If I weren't a team SixTONES, I would've hated this fandom now.
I ranted in Twitter yesterday, so I thought I'll be okay now...but I guess not...
I actually hate that I still hate everyone (of course not really everyone)
Since anger is a 2nd hand emotion...I'll just observe this feeling for now...this feeling will eventually go away...
I guess it's just a phase...that I feel like I am starting to care less about team SixTONES (the fandom, not SixTONES)
It's just saddening that with just one reply, something that I love became something that I hate...
Oh well, since my semester is gonna start this week, I'll take it as a breather (though I think I'll be active in my 7MS account coz it's samupara in a few days) and come back as a better person (I hope 🤞)