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soooooooooooo
kinda random but im just gonna throw this out there
i just feel so completely lost
alone
blank.
I feel this intense weight, a heavy feeling, but im entirely empty. ridiculously empty.
i'm not really sure where this came from, or why i haven't been able to shake it for months. but it's starting to take it's toll. for real, im so unbelievably tired of feeling..... tired. I miss my old life. I'm in a place where no one understands, and not only does no one understand but no one could give two shits. no one in my current life up in the suds actually cares about me, wants me to be happy. maybe it's selfish to desire that, but i do. i really really do. what's even worse is i have no idea how to handle this feeling, so i;ve dealt with it in an even more destructive way... and that hurts, a lot. my life feels so cloudy, and i have no answers. it's like life is one giant exam and i'm the kid in the back of the room crying, so frustrated that i don't have anything to write down on the page. am i giving it my all? i don't even know. i would hope so. fuck, i almost feel as though im going to be sick to my stomach. and it's like that physical pain would be welcomed compared to this internal struggle im having. Some one just tell me this is normal. that you're all feeling the same way, that there's nothing wrong with me.
please?
kinda random but im just gonna throw this out there
i just feel so completely lost
alone
blank.
I feel this intense weight, a heavy feeling, but im entirely empty. ridiculously empty.
i'm not really sure where this came from, or why i haven't been able to shake it for months. but it's starting to take it's toll. for real, im so unbelievably tired of feeling..... tired. I miss my old life. I'm in a place where no one understands, and not only does no one understand but no one could give two shits. no one in my current life up in the suds actually cares about me, wants me to be happy. maybe it's selfish to desire that, but i do. i really really do. what's even worse is i have no idea how to handle this feeling, so i;ve dealt with it in an even more destructive way... and that hurts, a lot. my life feels so cloudy, and i have no answers. it's like life is one giant exam and i'm the kid in the back of the room crying, so frustrated that i don't have anything to write down on the page. am i giving it my all? i don't even know. i would hope so. fuck, i almost feel as though im going to be sick to my stomach. and it's like that physical pain would be welcomed compared to this internal struggle im having. Some one just tell me this is normal. that you're all feeling the same way, that there's nothing wrong with me.
please?