outlook on life, and final goodbyes

[via_sub_rosa]

First off, last night... kind of emotional for me. I was watching the slide show and all of these memories, good and bad, came around the corner and smacked me in the face. Seriously, it was so... Then the awards were being passed out... Band Optimist and Most Dedicated... and then the Juniros were called up. I saw it coming, too -- Tafrow mentioned the move. I didn't know what to do, so I did one of those nervous waves you do when you're at a concert or something and your parents call your name out. lol I dunno how to explain it, but I did it. =D So anyway, at the end I started going up to everyone and saying final goodbyes. I think a few almost started to cry but held back. =\ Understandable. It ticked me off though when I saw Suzy. I was going up to give her a final hug goodbye, but she asked where Pina was and walked away. Imagine how it feels when one of the closest people you know completely blows off your final goodbye like that? grr Otherwise it was a good night. The food was awesome, too!

on a side note, Amy's tattoo kicks ass! ("friends, family, music"... beautiful)

After last night, I learned one thing: keep no expectations... I discovered that when you devote so much attention to one particular thing, it hurts ya that much more when it doesn't go your way. I can't guarentee that I'll be "expectation free" (rhyme unintended), but it will be my goal to try. And that's the second part of my "quote of the day"
Keep no expectations... but always have a goal.

I figure a life without purpose is a life not worth living.