well, folks, 25 days left go. Then the school year's done. Yay for seniorism!
Ya know, with this whole end-of-the-school-year thing, people keep asking me the same questions:
- Why are you going?
- Your sister is staying. Why don't you? (usually followed by a joke of "What? You don't like us anymore?")
- What's in Texas?
- Aren't you going to miss us?
...and so forth.
Well, here's my heart out on a platter, kiddies. The fact of the matter is I'm used to moving from house to house. In fact, this house is pissing me off simply because I have never lived in a single residence for over a year and a half. Moreover, I'm bored with the environment -- the people never change (not like I have), the population is growing beyond my liking (BENNY's aren't the reason)... I need change, and I don't think staying in Jersey, living in another house, can satisfy that need.
Even more on top of that, I get to escape my older sister. She's a slob and is sooo thoroughly negative that it brings me down emotionally/mentally. If guard and friends is Kristin's only reason for staying here, fine. Let it be, but it's pointless since she'll be moving next year anyway. I don't even want to imagine living with her; kudos to Kristin, I suppose.
To whoever is reading this, I'm not trying to say I hate everyone and blah blah blah; I'm gonna miss you all to daeth. What I'm saying, though, is I need to move on and try new things, and I won't find them by staying here. It's an opportunity, and I'm grabbing it by the horns and taking the first train possible to get to it.
Copy this entry, print it out, and pass it along to everyone you know because folks, I'm tired of being asked "why...?"
On a lighter note, a few days ago I had written my first poem in years. It's more like a rewriting of an old poem that got on my nerves, but it's so completely different that I have no choice but declare it new. I'll have it on
my website in a bit. I have some bugs I have to work out -- the new layout I was working on is a dead project.
Tomorrow ought to be fun; I'll be in CompSci all day =) 'nuff said.
Wow, that "releasing of emotions" really drained me... 'nite.