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Coming Clean.
It's the coming of the new season, but this time that's not all that's changing. My whole perspective on life has really changed lately. I've gone from looking at things as "do whatever the fuck you what" to "do what'll make you happy." Even though they seem the same, they're vastly different. In taking part in these changes, I've come to find that there are many things I currently lack that could really help me better myself as a person overall. I've also found that when I set guidelines, any sort of limitation and/or goal, I will actually work to reach it, given the proper amount of motivation. Right now my main goal is to clean up this mess I've created, taking it one day, one obstacle at a time. I'm giving myself three months to fix this mess. Within three months, I want some sort of steadying balance to wake up to each and every morning. I will no longer belittle myself to the everyday standards I've been lowering myself to. I'm allowing nothing but positive influences, good days, and happy memories. I want that sunny disposition back, and I'm working with all I have to obtain and maintain that. I want to wake up to feeling wonderful, going to bed the same way; not having to worry whether or not I made a choice that was going to effect the rest of my life the previous night, and fear for the worst all of the time. I'm sick of living through my entanglement of lies and creating this Hell for myself and everyone around me. So, starting now, everything I do is for the betterment of not only myself, but everyone around me. I don't want to hear of your horrible dispositions any longer; I'll always be here to help whoever needs it. But please, don't bring these things to my attention any longer. I don't need anyone weighing me down. "I know not what tomorrow brings, but I know of what yesterday held. For, it is only within my memories that I can find myself." quote by me. Take this as you wish. I know where I'm giong with my life now, where I want to be by when, and how I'm going to get there. That's all there is to it.
It's the coming of the new season, but this time that's not all that's changing. My whole perspective on life has really changed lately. I've gone from looking at things as "do whatever the fuck you what" to "do what'll make you happy." Even though they seem the same, they're vastly different. In taking part in these changes, I've come to find that there are many things I currently lack that could really help me better myself as a person overall. I've also found that when I set guidelines, any sort of limitation and/or goal, I will actually work to reach it, given the proper amount of motivation. Right now my main goal is to clean up this mess I've created, taking it one day, one obstacle at a time. I'm giving myself three months to fix this mess. Within three months, I want some sort of steadying balance to wake up to each and every morning. I will no longer belittle myself to the everyday standards I've been lowering myself to. I'm allowing nothing but positive influences, good days, and happy memories. I want that sunny disposition back, and I'm working with all I have to obtain and maintain that. I want to wake up to feeling wonderful, going to bed the same way; not having to worry whether or not I made a choice that was going to effect the rest of my life the previous night, and fear for the worst all of the time. I'm sick of living through my entanglement of lies and creating this Hell for myself and everyone around me. So, starting now, everything I do is for the betterment of not only myself, but everyone around me. I don't want to hear of your horrible dispositions any longer; I'll always be here to help whoever needs it. But please, don't bring these things to my attention any longer. I don't need anyone weighing me down. "I know not what tomorrow brings, but I know of what yesterday held. For, it is only within my memories that I can find myself." quote by me. Take this as you wish. I know where I'm giong with my life now, where I want to be by when, and how I'm going to get there. That's all there is to it.