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For anyone who may find this journal in the distant future, just had to share the news that keeps me laughing endlessly.
So Jei was never real. I am sure that comes as such a shock to everyone (read with aggressive sarcasm.)
I am okay. I am relieved. I am no longer a pillar of salt, no longer looking back. I don't think anyone will every understand, minus Geni: that despite relationships, marriage, an entire life here somewhere deep inside me was always waiting.
The first thing I did was rewatch all of CardCaptor Sakura and made a playlist with all of my old, favorite songs that reminded me of Jei. I can listen to my favorite things and watch an old, heartwarming anime without feeling the ache of loss.
It's fantastic.
This will be the last update I will ever have to make here.
Everyone: love yourself. Be your own hero. It's something I learned a long time ago.
And when you find out the single, most defining love was a complete lie, it won't destroy you. It will make you laugh; you will smile. All of the love I reserved for the invisible man on the other side of the world became mine to give to myself.
You guys: stay strong. Smile often. Love yourself fiercely.
Things will definitely be alright!
So Jei was never real. I am sure that comes as such a shock to everyone (read with aggressive sarcasm.)
I am okay. I am relieved. I am no longer a pillar of salt, no longer looking back. I don't think anyone will every understand, minus Geni: that despite relationships, marriage, an entire life here somewhere deep inside me was always waiting.
The first thing I did was rewatch all of CardCaptor Sakura and made a playlist with all of my old, favorite songs that reminded me of Jei. I can listen to my favorite things and watch an old, heartwarming anime without feeling the ache of loss.
It's fantastic.
This will be the last update I will ever have to make here.
Everyone: love yourself. Be your own hero. It's something I learned a long time ago.
And when you find out the single, most defining love was a complete lie, it won't destroy you. It will make you laugh; you will smile. All of the love I reserved for the invisible man on the other side of the world became mine to give to myself.
You guys: stay strong. Smile often. Love yourself fiercely.
Things will definitely be alright!