satanic panic

[via__chicago]

last night was colin's twenty-first birthday celebration over at the boys' house. we had a really enjoyable time, but it hardly felt like a twenty-first birthday party by any means. that made me think.. the majority of my friends who have turned twenty one already.. (nearly all of them actually) didn't really have any large drunken celebratory evenings in honor of their special day. most of them either didn't really do much of anything or just drank with a few friends. is it wrong that i still want the celebratory drink-till-you-(almost)-spew bar crawling evening?? i want to look at photos from the evening later on and not remember how they were taken.. and i'm not really sure why. i'm not really a large party kid, i'm not sure where this desire comes from, but i'm hoping people will still be up for that kind of evening when december sixth rolls around. we'll see....

i'm hanging out alone tonight with some kids i met last weekend.. i think it could potentially be a really fun evening but also kind of strange seeing as i've only met them once and i was severely intoxicated. i also hate awkwardness so i'm really hoping the evening avoids that alltogether.

i should be filling my time now with joyce instead of ridiculous online activities...

anyway... a scene from last night: