I'm standing on a line between giving up and seeing how much more I can take
Karma has a sick sense of humor. But at least it allows me to know what to expect.
Huge pieces of my life have been shaken up.
I can't find the right words but the way my actions are coming back and replaying is putting me in an absolute state of shock.
I finally shake myself of emotional screwiness only to have the rug from pulled out on me.
I walked away from a friendship 5 years ago. And a friendship walked away from me in the past year.
I walked away from guys who cares about. And now a guy is walking away from me. There are no words. I don't know what to expect. Will this action repeat for every deed i have done? I thought i had made payments for my sins but how much is really enough? i never thought it was quite done and when these people came into my life i KNEW it was too good to be true.
Looks like i'll never think that way again.
And being the masochist that i am i will continue to replay my memories, and look through all the pictures.
Hold on for every but of paian and hurt
Having emotions is weird. But it has to be better then numb.
random thing
early morning thoughts and all.
Huge pieces of my life have been shaken up.
I can't find the right words but the way my actions are coming back and replaying is putting me in an absolute state of shock.
I finally shake myself of emotional screwiness only to have the rug from pulled out on me.
I walked away from a friendship 5 years ago. And a friendship walked away from me in the past year.
I walked away from guys who cares about. And now a guy is walking away from me. There are no words. I don't know what to expect. Will this action repeat for every deed i have done? I thought i had made payments for my sins but how much is really enough? i never thought it was quite done and when these people came into my life i KNEW it was too good to be true.
Looks like i'll never think that way again.
And being the masochist that i am i will continue to replay my memories, and look through all the pictures.
Hold on for every but of paian and hurt
Having emotions is weird. But it has to be better then numb.
random thing
early morning thoughts and all.