second of december
so i'm attempting to undergo a practicum of literary catharsis. i don't know exactly if it's because i have a tendency to come on lj at around four am and if it's because it's so late that it's easier to fall asleep afterwards, or whether the process of writing really is cathartic in a sense, but i figure it's time to post more than the occasional complaint in here. and if it permits me to go to sleep before four am, then i won't complain. this is really becoming emo-journal. i'm not quite sure whether or not i can rectify that; as they say, drama and depression makes the best story. or at least, the best mood to write said story.
so i don't know how the fuck it got to be december. i was quite shocked to find snow on the ground this morning, this year has literally just flown by. maybe it's because of the weather change and the fact that we had warm weather right up until november that makes this change all the more dramatic, but it really feels like week was summer; like yesterday was fall. i remember the first day it snowed lightly a week or so ago, and i was shocked because the trees had yet to fully shed their foliage, and the ground was ablaze with fiery red leaves, dusted lightly with a brilliant white. it was beautiful, but also surreal. it's not often you get this sort of merging of seasons (and in so literal a perspective as well), and i have a feeling that it will become much more commonplace in the impending years as the climate gets increasingly screwed up.
this week is going to be slightly hellish, particularly tuesday. i have three exams this week and one essay due. come tuesday at nine pm, two of those exams as well as the essay will be over with (at the cost of having a brutally packed and intellectually strenuous day), and then after friday i have a lovely month off to hopefully get back into some sort of equilibrium. i'm not sure if the fact that i have two jobs lined up for the entirety of the break will be conducive to giving myself a much needed 'reprieve' and 'break', but i won't complain about the fact that i'll be making some extra cash, which is really direly needed at this point. i really want to buy a digital slr for my travels next year, but that would put me out around a thousand dollars, while the tesl course i'd like to take before i leave is a similarly sized chunk out of my wallet. so yes, two jobs... but money. i'm hoping regardless that the weight of school off my mind will help... but five more days, and we'll see.
so i don't know how the fuck it got to be december. i was quite shocked to find snow on the ground this morning, this year has literally just flown by. maybe it's because of the weather change and the fact that we had warm weather right up until november that makes this change all the more dramatic, but it really feels like week was summer; like yesterday was fall. i remember the first day it snowed lightly a week or so ago, and i was shocked because the trees had yet to fully shed their foliage, and the ground was ablaze with fiery red leaves, dusted lightly with a brilliant white. it was beautiful, but also surreal. it's not often you get this sort of merging of seasons (and in so literal a perspective as well), and i have a feeling that it will become much more commonplace in the impending years as the climate gets increasingly screwed up.
this week is going to be slightly hellish, particularly tuesday. i have three exams this week and one essay due. come tuesday at nine pm, two of those exams as well as the essay will be over with (at the cost of having a brutally packed and intellectually strenuous day), and then after friday i have a lovely month off to hopefully get back into some sort of equilibrium. i'm not sure if the fact that i have two jobs lined up for the entirety of the break will be conducive to giving myself a much needed 'reprieve' and 'break', but i won't complain about the fact that i'll be making some extra cash, which is really direly needed at this point. i really want to buy a digital slr for my travels next year, but that would put me out around a thousand dollars, while the tesl course i'd like to take before i leave is a similarly sized chunk out of my wallet. so yes, two jobs... but money. i'm hoping regardless that the weight of school off my mind will help... but five more days, and we'll see.