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i am SO overwhelmed.
i had two exams today, and i wrote 32 pages of essays. 32 pages! double spaced, but still! five hours of writing is a LOT of writing to do in one day, my hand was almost failing me in my second exam. But i think i did well. Think. So that's good, my mind is slightly at ease.
I was in a sort of relationship for a while which i had to end because i was simply not keeping up with life. I had a job interview last week, which i thought i completely botched and went away thinking i was an idiot. But i got a call yesterday that i got the job... so it looks like my full time employment, an office job with the government starts on Tuesday. I'm nervous because it's a lot of responsibility and i apparently have to talk to a lot of important people on the phone and attempt to get documents. And if i don't get them, the fault is mine cause apparently i wasn't persuasive or nice enough. Sound intimidating? It really kind of is.
So, my dilemma is now this. I don't have time to give two weeks notice to my current employer, and since i've been there three years i don't want to leave a bad impression. I'm scheduled to work there almost thirty hours next week, 95% of the hours conflict with the new job. Not only is this my problem, but i'm also working these hours during my exam period, with my current boss and a full-timer on vacation. So right now i've got two (pseudo) jobs, exams, and i have no one to cover my hours at my current employment. I know it will inevitably come to me fucking my boss over, and i just can't stand that. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!
ALSO, i had to reschedule my trip to Czech (my plane ticket was from May 13th-24th) to September because i signed a contract to stay with the government job for the entirety of the summer. AND i was in the process of booking a flight/trip to NYC in July with Corey and Bonnie but i had to put that on hold. I also haven't watched this week's Entourage or House yet. That has never happened before.
I really didn't sleep at all last night, my mind just wouldn't stop running. Writing those 32 pages sucked even more on an insufficient amount of sleep.
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i am SO overwhelmed.
i had two exams today, and i wrote 32 pages of essays. 32 pages! double spaced, but still! five hours of writing is a LOT of writing to do in one day, my hand was almost failing me in my second exam. But i think i did well. Think. So that's good, my mind is slightly at ease.
I was in a sort of relationship for a while which i had to end because i was simply not keeping up with life. I had a job interview last week, which i thought i completely botched and went away thinking i was an idiot. But i got a call yesterday that i got the job... so it looks like my full time employment, an office job with the government starts on Tuesday. I'm nervous because it's a lot of responsibility and i apparently have to talk to a lot of important people on the phone and attempt to get documents. And if i don't get them, the fault is mine cause apparently i wasn't persuasive or nice enough. Sound intimidating? It really kind of is.
So, my dilemma is now this. I don't have time to give two weeks notice to my current employer, and since i've been there three years i don't want to leave a bad impression. I'm scheduled to work there almost thirty hours next week, 95% of the hours conflict with the new job. Not only is this my problem, but i'm also working these hours during my exam period, with my current boss and a full-timer on vacation. So right now i've got two (pseudo) jobs, exams, and i have no one to cover my hours at my current employment. I know it will inevitably come to me fucking my boss over, and i just can't stand that. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!
ALSO, i had to reschedule my trip to Czech (my plane ticket was from May 13th-24th) to September because i signed a contract to stay with the government job for the entirety of the summer. AND i was in the process of booking a flight/trip to NYC in July with Corey and Bonnie but i had to put that on hold. I also haven't watched this week's Entourage or House yet. That has never happened before.
I really didn't sleep at all last night, my mind just wouldn't stop running. Writing those 32 pages sucked even more on an insufficient amount of sleep.