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I made the biggest mistake at Hold’Em tonight. I thought I had a straight and I was throwing chips in like mad, without a single thought to it. I really was one card away from having a straight and lost the pot. I ended up winning in the end. Funny how things turn out. I’ve realized I can kill at poker because I’m so unpredictable. People look at that kind of shady style of playing the game and they think I’m a complete idiot and yet I use it to my advantage. I’m completely unpredictable and can put you all in with no hand at all. My face shows no emotions what so ever. And once I loss a pot to you with no hand you make the fatal mistake in thinking that the next time I put you in I have nothing. And then I flip over two kings and you realize that you’re out of a game because you underestimated me.
Don’t ever underestimate me. I have more strength and intelligence than most people do. Maybe I say stupid things and wear my emotions on my sleeves in life but don’t think for one moment I can’t achieve everything I’m destined to do. I’m ruthless when it comes to achieving the goals I set for myself and I can catch you off guard and before you know it I’ve won and you’re wondering what happened and where did that naive girl go.
I look at my parents and see so much strength. They were refugees and survived genocide with two small kids to take care of and now look. When I process the stories my mom tells me I realize how fucking lucky we are to be alive and not living in poverty. It makes me feel so grateful for everything I have. My parents are inspiring. They have sacrificed so much to give my sister and I opportunities. Their prime years lost in war and struggling to survive. What have you done with your life? I have to ask myself that question. I won’t fail. There is no room for it and don’t say “You won’t fail if you’re happy,” or some BS like that. I’m going to say thank you to my parents endlessly. They deserve more than most in the world have given to them without thought. They deserve security and comfort and they will have it all. And now I have to make sacrifices to make what I want happen a reality and I’m ready for it. There is no other day than today…tomorrow is uncertain.
I miss my grandfather….and my grandmother….two people lost and one isn’t even dead which makes it that much harder.
Don’t ever underestimate me. I have more strength and intelligence than most people do. Maybe I say stupid things and wear my emotions on my sleeves in life but don’t think for one moment I can’t achieve everything I’m destined to do. I’m ruthless when it comes to achieving the goals I set for myself and I can catch you off guard and before you know it I’ve won and you’re wondering what happened and where did that naive girl go.
I look at my parents and see so much strength. They were refugees and survived genocide with two small kids to take care of and now look. When I process the stories my mom tells me I realize how fucking lucky we are to be alive and not living in poverty. It makes me feel so grateful for everything I have. My parents are inspiring. They have sacrificed so much to give my sister and I opportunities. Their prime years lost in war and struggling to survive. What have you done with your life? I have to ask myself that question. I won’t fail. There is no room for it and don’t say “You won’t fail if you’re happy,” or some BS like that. I’m going to say thank you to my parents endlessly. They deserve more than most in the world have given to them without thought. They deserve security and comfort and they will have it all. And now I have to make sacrifices to make what I want happen a reality and I’m ready for it. There is no other day than today…tomorrow is uncertain.
I miss my grandfather….and my grandmother….two people lost and one isn’t even dead which makes it that much harder.