a horrible night
tonight has been a horrible night.
got in a fight with don and now im sleeping alone
it feels worse than it probably is, I wont even say what started it because it's irrelevant. All I know is that when we fight, there is something in the way the arguement or fight transpires that brings out some deep insecurities of mine. I dont know if it's a fear of losing what we have one day, but i really fear its something worse than that
guilty insecurities that i have: I know that don loves me, but the fact that he doesn't actually SAY it except in reciprocation really gets to me.
this is an issue i have tried to confront for years between us. i know for a fact that his family does not really verbalize their emotions and im pretty sure thats why. but a part of me feels like if you love someone that verbalizing it would come naturally and the fact that he doesnt say it much really gets to me
I feel guilty about it because it's like im questioning his love, i know he loves me or we wouldnt still be together. But still, i cant shake it, and he cant seem to adapt to saying it more often. (something i have not pushed too hard; i dont want him to say it just to please me obviously, so i've left it to him if he wants to say it)
got in a fight with don and now im sleeping alone
it feels worse than it probably is, I wont even say what started it because it's irrelevant. All I know is that when we fight, there is something in the way the arguement or fight transpires that brings out some deep insecurities of mine. I dont know if it's a fear of losing what we have one day, but i really fear its something worse than that
guilty insecurities that i have: I know that don loves me, but the fact that he doesn't actually SAY it except in reciprocation really gets to me.
this is an issue i have tried to confront for years between us. i know for a fact that his family does not really verbalize their emotions and im pretty sure thats why. but a part of me feels like if you love someone that verbalizing it would come naturally and the fact that he doesnt say it much really gets to me
I feel guilty about it because it's like im questioning his love, i know he loves me or we wouldnt still be together. But still, i cant shake it, and he cant seem to adapt to saying it more often. (something i have not pushed too hard; i dont want him to say it just to please me obviously, so i've left it to him if he wants to say it)