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Everybody in this fuckin house is driving me crazy. Not just in this house but everywhere I go. I swear to God I gotta get away from here, Muskegon is the fuckin Bermuda triangle and my punk ass is stuck right in the middle. Im so tired of this shit. Why cant things go right? I have absolutely NO money for school, Baker took my financial aid and wont let me use any loan through Sallie Mae, which is the only place I can get a loan without a cosigner. Every private loan requires a co signer and the best person I have to co-sign is my mother and guess what? She wont do it. Its a loan for school, but she can buy my grown ass sister just about anything damn thing she wants. She takes care of her damn kids and my other sisters kids too. But you can't help me out with school? She acts like its not even important anymore. Everytime I tell her something positive about school or something Im trying to do with school she blows me off like I didnt even say anything. But she acts all fuckin hyper over some fuckin housekeeping job my sister has at the hospital. Even though we all know its only a matter of time before she quits that too, just like she quits everything else in her life. I feel like she gives so much attention to my sisters and larry and barely any attention to me. I mean yea she cares but when I make a decision that she didnt suggest then she doesnt want any part of it. And im sick and fuckin tired of people tellin me how my life isnt as bad as theres how my parents arent as bad as theres. I agree they arent but that doesnt mean my problems arent real problems. And Im sick and tired of people coming in with their problems from their family and every fuckin body wants to "adopt" my parents and call my mother "mom" and all that bullshit. Just what I need, another person to add to the mix so she can ignore me even more. If I cant go to school this quarter, I cant go back to Ferris next semester, and I know I bitched about Ferris but at least I had my privacy, my tuition always was paid, and I didnt have to deal with this bullshit. And I really dont want any comments on the post I just wanted to vent.