Natatakot ako na kung kailan ako magiging ok, saka siya biglang susulpot sa buhay ko ulit. Natatakot ako na bigla siyang babalik, wanting me back, and by then hindi ko na siya mahal. Kasi we were so good together. I can't remember how it was to not be in a couple. I looked back and tried to think of the things I used to enjoy doing when I was still single, but my mind comes up with nothing. He changed the way I live my life and it's so damn hard to go back to being without him. Most of all, natatakot ako na hindi na niya ako mahal.
Pero I believe you. I know in time it will hurt less. I know in time I won't even care. I know this now because two months ago, just after he left me, I wanted to die. I really could hear my heart breaking. Now I still have that little death wish, I still cry every day but I'm starting to get my life back on track. I sometimes am able to stop myself from crying. I am still unable to resist calling him and bugging him but I'm calling him less and less.
Siguro kaya ako mabagal maka-move on kasi I'm putting too much pressure on myself. I should just live my life one day at a time (parang alcoholic).
Hay ewan ko. Ayoko na minsan mag-over-analyze or mag-analyze nito. Bahala na si Batman.
Natatakot ako na kung kailan ako magiging ok, saka siya biglang susulpot sa buhay ko ulit. Natatakot ako na bigla siyang babalik, wanting me back, and by then hindi ko na siya mahal.
ah kung ako lang ha di na ako aasa para walang HURT in the end. sabi nga lagi ng friend ko sakin "expect the worst" ie expect ko na daw na magkakaron na agad ng bagong gf si gagu
Pero I believe you. I know in time it will hurt less. I know in time I won't even care. I know this now because two months ago, just after he left me, I wanted to die. I really could hear my heart breaking. Now I still have that little death wish, I still cry every day but I'm starting to get my life back on track. I sometimes am able to stop myself from crying. I am still unable to resist calling him and bugging him but I'm calling him less and less.
Siguro kaya ako mabagal maka-move on kasi I'm putting too much pressure on myself. I should just live my life one day at a time (parang alcoholic).
Hay ewan ko. Ayoko na minsan mag-over-analyze or mag-analyze nito. Bahala na si Batman.
Sino ka pala, friend?
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ah kung ako lang ha di na ako aasa para walang HURT in the end. sabi nga lagi ng friend ko sakin "expect the worst" ie expect ko na daw na magkakaron na agad ng bagong gf si gagu
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