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It seems like the fun never ends with me, I swear... I was feeling pretty good this morning and thought I'd sit and write a good things sort of post for once, but then when I stopped to think about it, the past couple of weeks have been really draining.
My 'rents are gone, and that's grand, but they've been calling a lot. Often at insane times, like 6am on a Saturday - I have a buttload of businessy things to sort out for them here, so I still feel the weight of obligation without the perks, like getting to watch foxtel and have cups of tea made for me.
Meanwhile, one of my close friends (FriendA) has been having a mental rough patch. One of my other friends (FriendB) did something that upset FriendA just prior to her episode and doesn't see that what she did was wrong in any way - she had good intentions and that's all that matters to her. So, when FriendA was a little out of it, she sent some messages to FriendB that were kind of nasty. FriendB gossiped about the drama to a stranger, who sent FriendA a text to say she was crazy, and everything blew up ten times worse. I was checking in with FriendB to make sure she was ok, as well as FriendA, but she just doesn't get that she could possibly have done anything wrong, and she sent a couple of messages that kind of offended me so I've just decided to leave it.
So... if you managed to make it through my last essay, there was a bit in there about how i kinda sorta was seeing this guy unofficially.. he went to the same NYE party as me, where he accused me of being needy which really irritated me, because I spent most of the night talking to other people, and I'm used to hearing the opposite - it was totally left field, and it really got to me. So, I said we should probably not sleep together anymore, and now really regret it because whatever our arrangement was it would have provided a nice distraction from everything else. I think I am more upset about it than I should be. Still, I don't know if that's because I like(d?) him or just because I've needed that outlet over the past couple of weeks and it hasnt been there.
This all got kind of too much for me last week. I got this migraine that just wouldn't go away, and I spent the latter half of the week at home from work in a codeine haze. I haven't done my laundry in weeks, my room is a pigsty.. I just want a couple of drama-free weeks, or maybe I just need to spend some time with different people.
Edit to say that for all my wanting the drama to be done with, FriendA is amazing - after her meltdown she's totally been there for me with my lesser one - I might want to hang out with different people but I wouldn't want to stop hanging out with her for the world.
My 'rents are gone, and that's grand, but they've been calling a lot. Often at insane times, like 6am on a Saturday - I have a buttload of businessy things to sort out for them here, so I still feel the weight of obligation without the perks, like getting to watch foxtel and have cups of tea made for me.
Meanwhile, one of my close friends (FriendA) has been having a mental rough patch. One of my other friends (FriendB) did something that upset FriendA just prior to her episode and doesn't see that what she did was wrong in any way - she had good intentions and that's all that matters to her. So, when FriendA was a little out of it, she sent some messages to FriendB that were kind of nasty. FriendB gossiped about the drama to a stranger, who sent FriendA a text to say she was crazy, and everything blew up ten times worse. I was checking in with FriendB to make sure she was ok, as well as FriendA, but she just doesn't get that she could possibly have done anything wrong, and she sent a couple of messages that kind of offended me so I've just decided to leave it.
So... if you managed to make it through my last essay, there was a bit in there about how i kinda sorta was seeing this guy unofficially.. he went to the same NYE party as me, where he accused me of being needy which really irritated me, because I spent most of the night talking to other people, and I'm used to hearing the opposite - it was totally left field, and it really got to me. So, I said we should probably not sleep together anymore, and now really regret it because whatever our arrangement was it would have provided a nice distraction from everything else. I think I am more upset about it than I should be. Still, I don't know if that's because I like(d?) him or just because I've needed that outlet over the past couple of weeks and it hasnt been there.
This all got kind of too much for me last week. I got this migraine that just wouldn't go away, and I spent the latter half of the week at home from work in a codeine haze. I haven't done my laundry in weeks, my room is a pigsty.. I just want a couple of drama-free weeks, or maybe I just need to spend some time with different people.
Edit to say that for all my wanting the drama to be done with, FriendA is amazing - after her meltdown she's totally been there for me with my lesser one - I might want to hang out with different people but I wouldn't want to stop hanging out with her for the world.