Not really an update - but the best I can do right now
So yes, I am still alive. Very busy with SLRF and performing every weekend. And trying to be home for the twins during the week. That is a big one righ tnow - since they are alone all weekend I don't get to sleep through the night till about wednesday.
WOrk is still work, less venomous hatred currently and more accepting of the suckage that is my job. Still need to find a different job but am kinda beaten down the job hunting area and am not sure I am ready to add that to a daily aspect of my life again.
My "dealing with my issues" quest had been going wonderfully well recently - till this weekend. I am currently experincing what most would consider a huge setback and instead of sprinting in the direction of making progress, I am zip lining backward to a much worse place than I have been in many months. And now little things that would not have been a problem a month ago are throbbing in my mind and I feel the chasm getting bigger. I know why this is that case, I know the majority of what caused it. But have NO IDEA how to stop it. no clue how to break the chain and start back the other direction. But I am going to have to find out how.
Hopefully a more detailed report, a better report one can hope, to come soon.
WOrk is still work, less venomous hatred currently and more accepting of the suckage that is my job. Still need to find a different job but am kinda beaten down the job hunting area and am not sure I am ready to add that to a daily aspect of my life again.
My "dealing with my issues" quest had been going wonderfully well recently - till this weekend. I am currently experincing what most would consider a huge setback and instead of sprinting in the direction of making progress, I am zip lining backward to a much worse place than I have been in many months. And now little things that would not have been a problem a month ago are throbbing in my mind and I feel the chasm getting bigger. I know why this is that case, I know the majority of what caused it. But have NO IDEA how to stop it. no clue how to break the chain and start back the other direction. But I am going to have to find out how.
Hopefully a more detailed report, a better report one can hope, to come soon.