When will it end?
Thank God that this craptastic week is almost over. I am so tired, so drained. Getting in a nice little "tiff" with Pat today helped alot. Though it was over something stupid, it was probably the closest thing to a fight we have ever had. I am just really angry right now - angry at life in general. things were so good to begin the week. And the surprise by pat on tuesday is somehting I will always tell people when describing how wonderful he is. I think that was part of it - such supreme joy followed by a sucky day. And yesterady was beyond horrible. Today about the same - made worse by me picking a fight with Pat over something stupid.
yesterday;s highlight was getting two very sweet reponses to something I posted on my myspace account. I was honestly in tears they were so wonderful. I am saving those for those days when it seems no one cares.
I think I expect to much. Feeling very self-critical right now. I think I F*%#@*d stuff up royaly with Pat. Me and my stupid brain. I misinterprited stuff and think he is not happy with me currently. Not that he does not have every right to be upset.
I jsut want to go home, curl up with my twins, assume the fetal position and cry then sleep. then at least I can tell myself that when I wake up it will all be o.k.
yesterday;s highlight was getting two very sweet reponses to something I posted on my myspace account. I was honestly in tears they were so wonderful. I am saving those for those days when it seems no one cares.
I think I expect to much. Feeling very self-critical right now. I think I F*%#@*d stuff up royaly with Pat. Me and my stupid brain. I misinterprited stuff and think he is not happy with me currently. Not that he does not have every right to be upset.
I jsut want to go home, curl up with my twins, assume the fetal position and cry then sleep. then at least I can tell myself that when I wake up it will all be o.k.