"The Eagles! The Eagles are coming!"
This weekend was made of so much win. I got to go home and, while it's slightly amusing that I went this weekend and I'm going back home in two days, it was awesome. I got to sleep in my own bed at least one night (the other I shared it with Emma who is a bed hog) and I got to cuddle with my babies and see a play at school. I realized that, when I came to school, that I had missed it more than I thought. It smelled like Perpich and the Black Box (which had once scared me shitless) was a comforting thing. Seeing that people who were seniors this year remembered me made me feel happy.
I've been debating about going to the U in the cities for a while now. I like Duluth but, as nice as Duluth is, it's not Minneapolis. It's smaller and, yes small is good, but I feel like I need more. They still only have an English program instead of a Creative Writing one, but I could continue to make due with it. I miss the vibe of the city, miss the art connection we had there, and miss my friends. I'm making friends here but I don't seem to be making the same, meaningful connections with as many people. I don't feel involved and, while I know I should try to get involved in stuff, it scares me to try something new on my own.
Why yes, Ladies and Gentlemen, I have issues trying to do something new on my own. It's why it took me about an hour to call Health Services to see about my back, it's why I can't do a whole lot of things on my own, and why I get scared going to banks I don't know. I like familiarity and not having it makes me so uncomfortable.
Emma and I had long discussions about our good and bad parts of life right now, and then brought up the whole me coming back to go to school at the U. I could share space with her in this apartment she's gonna have next year with people. And then she brought up the fact that she's going to move out to Boston after college to live with Joel, her boyfriend, and said if I wanted to, his condo he's going to probably have has an extra room.
In other words, she wants me to come out to Boston.
There are a lot of different roads through life and this might be one. It's too far ahead in the future to think seriously about yet. I keep having to tell myself "One step at a time, Kristen, one step at a time."
I want to go on a semi-hiatus in my non-Aude games for a while. I'm seriously afraid that my friend, who mods one of the games I'm in, with get bitchy about it because I've been less than active lately. But their voices for the characters I have are gone. I'm trying to find them and seriously don't have the hart to tell her that. She got really upset last time before when I hadn't posted in a while and I'm just afraid she'll take it personally.
Two days until I'm home again. Thank Goodness.
I've been debating about going to the U in the cities for a while now. I like Duluth but, as nice as Duluth is, it's not Minneapolis. It's smaller and, yes small is good, but I feel like I need more. They still only have an English program instead of a Creative Writing one, but I could continue to make due with it. I miss the vibe of the city, miss the art connection we had there, and miss my friends. I'm making friends here but I don't seem to be making the same, meaningful connections with as many people. I don't feel involved and, while I know I should try to get involved in stuff, it scares me to try something new on my own.
Why yes, Ladies and Gentlemen, I have issues trying to do something new on my own. It's why it took me about an hour to call Health Services to see about my back, it's why I can't do a whole lot of things on my own, and why I get scared going to banks I don't know. I like familiarity and not having it makes me so uncomfortable.
Emma and I had long discussions about our good and bad parts of life right now, and then brought up the whole me coming back to go to school at the U. I could share space with her in this apartment she's gonna have next year with people. And then she brought up the fact that she's going to move out to Boston after college to live with Joel, her boyfriend, and said if I wanted to, his condo he's going to probably have has an extra room.
In other words, she wants me to come out to Boston.
There are a lot of different roads through life and this might be one. It's too far ahead in the future to think seriously about yet. I keep having to tell myself "One step at a time, Kristen, one step at a time."
I want to go on a semi-hiatus in my non-Aude games for a while. I'm seriously afraid that my friend, who mods one of the games I'm in, with get bitchy about it because I've been less than active lately. But their voices for the characters I have are gone. I'm trying to find them and seriously don't have the hart to tell her that. She got really upset last time before when I hadn't posted in a while and I'm just afraid she'll take it personally.
Two days until I'm home again. Thank Goodness.