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The fascinating thing, for me anyway, about laughing gas is that your mind is still perfectly clear and rational while you are drugged. I giggled away as I thought over everything. My body relaxed even though my mind ran in panicked little circles about what was about to happen. It's a very surreal experience, it really is.
Eventually the iv was put in, and the doctor said calmly "Now keep taking big breaths and you'll be out in just a few minutes. I put the medication in." And I remember thinking "But I don't feel sleepy, or different at all. In fact my arm feels cold and I can feel the rush of the foreign liquid invading my veins. This is not nice."
And then I was out.
Unfortunately, again, I woke under sedation. I'm a real difficult person to keep under, I guess it has something to do with my phobia, and that I'm still panicked through the whole thing so adrenaline is rushing and I fight sedation the whole way. I woke up once, they put me under. The second time they just held me down and finished the procedure real fast (they were on the last five minutes). mmm five minutes in hell. Fun times. I was ragingly pissed when I got out of the chair, but I was taken home and my mouth DOES feel a lot better.
I can move my jaw more then I could before. It's sore, in a bone deep kind of way, but my teeth are shiny white and my jaw has it's mobility again and the swelling has already gone down a lot.
When I got home I went back to sleep and slept until about 5 am this morning. So far so good, jaw feels pretty okay, and I was able to eat pudding. My arm is one great big nasty bruise though from the iv, fun times.
All in all I feel pretty great. In theory all the swelling and pain should be gone by the time I'm at dragoncon, so I should be all set for a fun time at the convention. I have to go back in three months, for another procedure. But this one is fairly tiny and they're only sedating me because of how terrified I get (we're talking, I'm sitting in the chair but my entire body trembles wildly, like I'm shaking from cold or something). So not surgery, just checking things over, cleaning up a little, making sure it's okay.
Eventually the iv was put in, and the doctor said calmly "Now keep taking big breaths and you'll be out in just a few minutes. I put the medication in." And I remember thinking "But I don't feel sleepy, or different at all. In fact my arm feels cold and I can feel the rush of the foreign liquid invading my veins. This is not nice."
And then I was out.
Unfortunately, again, I woke under sedation. I'm a real difficult person to keep under, I guess it has something to do with my phobia, and that I'm still panicked through the whole thing so adrenaline is rushing and I fight sedation the whole way. I woke up once, they put me under. The second time they just held me down and finished the procedure real fast (they were on the last five minutes). mmm five minutes in hell. Fun times. I was ragingly pissed when I got out of the chair, but I was taken home and my mouth DOES feel a lot better.
I can move my jaw more then I could before. It's sore, in a bone deep kind of way, but my teeth are shiny white and my jaw has it's mobility again and the swelling has already gone down a lot.
When I got home I went back to sleep and slept until about 5 am this morning. So far so good, jaw feels pretty okay, and I was able to eat pudding. My arm is one great big nasty bruise though from the iv, fun times.
All in all I feel pretty great. In theory all the swelling and pain should be gone by the time I'm at dragoncon, so I should be all set for a fun time at the convention. I have to go back in three months, for another procedure. But this one is fairly tiny and they're only sedating me because of how terrified I get (we're talking, I'm sitting in the chair but my entire body trembles wildly, like I'm shaking from cold or something). So not surgery, just checking things over, cleaning up a little, making sure it's okay.