fuck that stupid bitch
my mom was on the phone with my great aunt tonight...she was talking to the woman about 5 feet away from me but she didnt know i was in the room. they started talking about me and my plans and my birthday n my mom said "yea she's looking at colleges in texas and colorado and california (excluding the colleges im ACTUALLY looking at in new england) but you know its never going to happen....its too far away and i wont let her go that far" then my aunt said something along the lines of "jill its her life she should go where she wants to go" and my mom said "no she'll go where i think is best for her to go, erin cant make any good decisions on her own and with her grades i doubt anywhere better than towson will accept her anyway." FUCK HER!!!! FUCK HER FUCK HER FUCK HER! ive told that woman a hundred times how i would be fucking heartbroken if i had to go to a school less than 8 hours away from here and all she's said is "we'll look at colleges all around n u'll find the right one" fucking supporting me to my face but then when its behind my back to someone she feels like showing off her "power" to im not going anywhere. fuck her i will go out of state. and whtas ironic is that i was really considering being nice for her and my mom mom and giong to towson for my first year so that my absence wouldnt be so hard on them but FUCK THAT! she doesnt believe i can get into an out of state college when my grades are fucking fine, ive gotten two D's (both in math so who fucking cares) since 6th grade so im around a 3.2 or so. thats good enough for NC SC and a lot of new england colleges...ive done my homework. that fucking bitch tho. i mean waht kind of mother supports your dreams to your face when in her heart she knows she'll never let them happen! that stupid bitch needs to let me live my life or ill end up killing myself or her! im going crazy here! just hereford for sixteen fucking years!? (17 in seventeen days!) nobody can take that shit without goign a little bit nuts. i just think its really shitty that she never had the balls to say anything to my face about any of this. it was always supportive and her telling me that im great and can do anything if i set my mind to it but what she was thinking in the back of her mind is "you can do anything that i want you to do as long as you set your mind the way i want you to....you're not going anywhere...you'll get married and pop out grandchildren for me and live next door forever" fuck fuck fuck fuck her ill die before that happens to me. FUCK HER........
fuckidy fuck fuck.
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