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Oct 17, 2010 01:00

I am giving him time, because he'll realize in time that he doesn't need me. Now that he's finally come to terms with his sexual orientation and realizes that's what I was trying to help him realize, it is obvious that he has some misplaced guilt about how things ended with us. Maybe he has some insecurity over being able to find other men so he wants to go back to the first relationship he had, because it's familiar and was pleasant for a while. I don't think he's really sincere in this new faith ... but I don't know. Maybe I need time to see if he is, like he said.

What happened wasn't just his fault. I pushed him too far, too fast. I got wrapped up in my own selfishness. He may need time to see that, too.

I will be there as minimal support while he goes through this, and I know God will be my support. Once Tom starts expanding to other areas of support and stands on his own, I'll fade into the background. I can't go through last summer again, and neither can he.

I don't know how I'll tell Mina.

on bended knee, it's guy-love, stray cat strut, no one can know, the disruptful pea, mina-beana, to the pale steed!

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