Me freaking out, out loud
School started yesterday and my life is just a mess. My practice of art class that I'm taking for my major requires 6-9 hours of work on the weekend. This would be fine and good I suppose if I wasn't planning on using my weekends to get the job I desperately need if I want to go abroad next semester. Then, I went to my art history class which I REALLY want to take...but there's a research paper that is worth 60% of the grade. I am incredibly horrible at researching and despise research papers in general, so they usually don't turn out very good...which is usually fine...but when it's counts for over 1/2 of my grade it's sort of a problem. I really would like to have a good major GPA and I have a feeling this class could be a problem if I stay in it...but it sounds SO interesting.
Today I had my other art history class which is going to be great...and then I went to this Linguistics class on Metaphor which I thought was going to be really interesting, but it sounds like the most miserable class ever and I really can't take it. So, there's another art history class at that time that I might try to switch into thereby dropping linguistics and avoiding the scary research paper. HOWEVER, that puts me 1 unit beneath the minimum units that you have to be signed up for. OF COURSE. So I was looking at the decal list and of course there are no decals that I want to take. So yeah, I'm sort of stressed.
So it's all a big mess and I hate being back in this school mode. On top of that, I need to get a job, and I had an interview the other day at this restaurant scheduled, and then I went, and she was so busy that she told me she would have to call me to make another appt. which of course she hasn't done--but I really need a paying job and GRRR.
In terms of non paying jobs though...of course I want to go back to Anticon, but I had eliminated the possibility because they're moving their office to San Francisco...I rationalized leaving by the fact that I need a paying job, and if I was paying for transportation, then I would be losing money, not just breaking even. But then Baillie went and offered to pay for my transportation if I still wanted to come in. So damnit. i don't know what to do.
On top of this, I have to take a fucking math test(for the second time) tomorrow night to try to pass a req. that I was too stupid to pass with my sat. I already have failed it once and I know I'm going to fail it again, and I really do not want to have to take statistics.
I just am a mess. A total mess.
I feel like crying, I hate when everything is so up in the air.
But other than that, being back in Berkeley is really really nice.
K, bye
Today I had my other art history class which is going to be great...and then I went to this Linguistics class on Metaphor which I thought was going to be really interesting, but it sounds like the most miserable class ever and I really can't take it. So, there's another art history class at that time that I might try to switch into thereby dropping linguistics and avoiding the scary research paper. HOWEVER, that puts me 1 unit beneath the minimum units that you have to be signed up for. OF COURSE. So I was looking at the decal list and of course there are no decals that I want to take. So yeah, I'm sort of stressed.
So it's all a big mess and I hate being back in this school mode. On top of that, I need to get a job, and I had an interview the other day at this restaurant scheduled, and then I went, and she was so busy that she told me she would have to call me to make another appt. which of course she hasn't done--but I really need a paying job and GRRR.
In terms of non paying jobs though...of course I want to go back to Anticon, but I had eliminated the possibility because they're moving their office to San Francisco...I rationalized leaving by the fact that I need a paying job, and if I was paying for transportation, then I would be losing money, not just breaking even. But then Baillie went and offered to pay for my transportation if I still wanted to come in. So damnit. i don't know what to do.
On top of this, I have to take a fucking math test(for the second time) tomorrow night to try to pass a req. that I was too stupid to pass with my sat. I already have failed it once and I know I'm going to fail it again, and I really do not want to have to take statistics.
I just am a mess. A total mess.
I feel like crying, I hate when everything is so up in the air.
But other than that, being back in Berkeley is really really nice.
K, bye