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*TRYOUTS aka: 'math tutoring' OR SPRING SHOW?!*
I want so badly for God to shove a decsion * solution in my face right now. Im tired of crying my eyes out & stressing!! What do I do....Well thats a pretty stupid question to ask considering I know whats best to do for my future. And if I take that route all theres to do is hope that later down the road all the tears and exhaustion will have paid off. However ive wanted to try this since the 7th grade, if I dont I know for a fact that I will regret it for a long time. Silly?? Well to paint this picture clear for you this is how I see it: My Future or Live for the moment.... Does it sound bad if I say that I want to have my cake && eat ice cream too. Ugh, I know Pam cares & im afraid of leting her down but im terrified of puting someone elses feelings above mine again, especially on a issue that i feel strongly about. I wish I could say even lie to myself about not wanting this thing bad enough but i would do anything for my future's sake.
Its a friday, I have all day rehersal tomorrow and usually im eating myself into a coma and having a terrific time. But today Ive done nothing but go to rehersal and sulk. It sucks a 'Larry on a Stick'.
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