Ehhh, shit.
I like updating only periodically. Keeps anyone who reads in some kind of suspense...
So it turns out that whole Phi Sigma Pi thing was a waste of time, as I didn't get in. It really bothered me for a bit...still does, slightly. I think the things that bother me are as follows:
#1 Time Invested
#2 Money Invested
#3 Selection Process
I harbor zero ill will towards anybody at all, although thinking as to all the hours spent on various meetings, interviews, etc is frustrating. Second to that is me thinking all the times I went out to eat with people, during the times when I really didn't want to, or my choice of company would possibly have changed for those times. Shite. Probably the thing I find absolutely hilarious though is the voting process. The way it works (worked?) was that every brother voted simply "Yes," or "No," to a person. If it seemed close the person would be...get this...debated in a pro/con manner. I mean, holy shit, can anybody really say "Yes," or for that matter, flatly say "No," to a human being? We barely had 3 or so months to get to know each other, and evidently it was enough to simply put it that way for people. I think it's funny, because I really wonder how that whole debate about me would have gone. I knew I had stuck out like a sore thumb since the beginning. I knew that some of the brothers patently disliked me, but not for reasons they could themselves fully understand I believe. I could feel it when I talked to some of them...listening but not hearing what I had to say, all the while thinking of how they disliked what I was saying for no good reason at all. They were unable to express said dislike though, as I never insulted or fucked them over. I guess the opportunity came then to vote, and the feelings hadn't changed.
Ehh well, fuck it. Like I said, knowing that there is/was a group that said no to me as a person and as a human being is kind of a damper, but c'est la vie.
Other news:
Work is awesome. The customers are so much smarter than those at Best Buy, and the ones that aren't knowledgeable that come in are willing to learn (generally). So much more relaxed. They have cooler toys at CompUSA as well. The networking aisle is my home.
School sucks. I am sick of spending so much fucking time on nothing but presentations. Why are two courses alone, 3000 level marketing and a 1000 level communications class, eating up at least 20 hours of my life weekly, on a regular basis? What the fuck, seriously. Nevermind that I also have Econ (Banking and the Money Supply), ISDS (Business statistics), and Management to deal with. I really am quite sick of all this shit. There have been more than a few times this past week I've contemplated just cashing out...liquidating nearly everything I own and going to work at some dive shop on some random island for a year or so.
I haven't had a chance to get to the gym lately either. Annoying, I'll probably have to drop weight on my sets now.
I want to go again to the shooting range soon. I need to clean my 1911 before I go though.
"The older you get, the more rules they are going to try and get you to follow. You just gotta keep on livin', man. L-I-V-I-N."
So it turns out that whole Phi Sigma Pi thing was a waste of time, as I didn't get in. It really bothered me for a bit...still does, slightly. I think the things that bother me are as follows:
#1 Time Invested
#2 Money Invested
#3 Selection Process
I harbor zero ill will towards anybody at all, although thinking as to all the hours spent on various meetings, interviews, etc is frustrating. Second to that is me thinking all the times I went out to eat with people, during the times when I really didn't want to, or my choice of company would possibly have changed for those times. Shite. Probably the thing I find absolutely hilarious though is the voting process. The way it works (worked?) was that every brother voted simply "Yes," or "No," to a person. If it seemed close the person would be...get this...debated in a pro/con manner. I mean, holy shit, can anybody really say "Yes," or for that matter, flatly say "No," to a human being? We barely had 3 or so months to get to know each other, and evidently it was enough to simply put it that way for people. I think it's funny, because I really wonder how that whole debate about me would have gone. I knew I had stuck out like a sore thumb since the beginning. I knew that some of the brothers patently disliked me, but not for reasons they could themselves fully understand I believe. I could feel it when I talked to some of them...listening but not hearing what I had to say, all the while thinking of how they disliked what I was saying for no good reason at all. They were unable to express said dislike though, as I never insulted or fucked them over. I guess the opportunity came then to vote, and the feelings hadn't changed.
Ehh well, fuck it. Like I said, knowing that there is/was a group that said no to me as a person and as a human being is kind of a damper, but c'est la vie.
Other news:
Work is awesome. The customers are so much smarter than those at Best Buy, and the ones that aren't knowledgeable that come in are willing to learn (generally). So much more relaxed. They have cooler toys at CompUSA as well. The networking aisle is my home.
School sucks. I am sick of spending so much fucking time on nothing but presentations. Why are two courses alone, 3000 level marketing and a 1000 level communications class, eating up at least 20 hours of my life weekly, on a regular basis? What the fuck, seriously. Nevermind that I also have Econ (Banking and the Money Supply), ISDS (Business statistics), and Management to deal with. I really am quite sick of all this shit. There have been more than a few times this past week I've contemplated just cashing out...liquidating nearly everything I own and going to work at some dive shop on some random island for a year or so.
I haven't had a chance to get to the gym lately either. Annoying, I'll probably have to drop weight on my sets now.
I want to go again to the shooting range soon. I need to clean my 1911 before I go though.
"The older you get, the more rules they are going to try and get you to follow. You just gotta keep on livin', man. L-I-V-I-N."