fun...fun...fun...
I went to a concert last night. It was alot of fun, havn't been out in awhile. There was a bunch of people I have seen sense Rich and I broke up. that band "FAT TATER" is so good now that they have a base player. He(Rich) really fucked up by not following through with playing with them. But I guess that's what happens when Carol Ann isn't there to take care of him. Oh well, that's what he gets. I'm tired of playing mommy to people.
Now I have alot of new friends that know how to take care of themselves. That all have known the band "FAT TATER" for years. Funny, it's such a small town. Red, one of my new friends, actually dropped Rich of at my house one time after band practice.
I really do mess him though, if you couldn't tell. But my mom's physic said it was going to take me three or four months to get over him. Not that I really believe in all that shit but it's something to look forward to. I have met alot of new guys but nobody to replace him yet. I guess he is alot harder to replace then I was because he already has a new girlfriend. Everybody told me that would happen but I didn't want to believe it.
It's great every time I go to the Hustler everyone has to ask where he is. Like I keep track of him now but I did here he doesn't want to go up there anymore because he doesn't like to see a bunch of guys hitting on me. Funny isn't it. I think it is because he's the one that got rid of me, not the other way around but being Mr. Rich Jaxin he doesn't want to see anyone messing with his property(a.k.a anything that he fucked) because he still loves me. Well Rich your doing a wonderful job of showing it. While your fucking your new slut do you thing of me. ASSHOLE!
Well, I always do it to myself. I want to be the one that takes care of everybody. At least now I know way, low self esteem. I figure, if I take care of them they will rely on me then they can't leave me because they need me to live. This is why I am still single. I need to fix that and I'm going to stay single until this little problem is resolved.
I just miss the hugs and kisses and cuddling. You know the shit that I can't remember ever being with out. Only when I dated Louie but that's a whole other fucked up chapter in my book. I am a very clingy person. I need that to survive. It's been hard with out it. That has to be the thing I miss the most. Lying in bed with him(Rich) cuddling all day and I mean all day.
Ok, I'll stop complaining. Everybody who reads his will probably think I'm insane. Well I'm not, I'm just suicidal. Trust me there is a difference. Well, I'm going to go get drunk at the bar. That's what I do now, every night. Yep, I go to Pinda Inn every night. It's great it's full of a bunch of other lonely, drunk losers. So I feel right at home.
Now I have alot of new friends that know how to take care of themselves. That all have known the band "FAT TATER" for years. Funny, it's such a small town. Red, one of my new friends, actually dropped Rich of at my house one time after band practice.
I really do mess him though, if you couldn't tell. But my mom's physic said it was going to take me three or four months to get over him. Not that I really believe in all that shit but it's something to look forward to. I have met alot of new guys but nobody to replace him yet. I guess he is alot harder to replace then I was because he already has a new girlfriend. Everybody told me that would happen but I didn't want to believe it.
It's great every time I go to the Hustler everyone has to ask where he is. Like I keep track of him now but I did here he doesn't want to go up there anymore because he doesn't like to see a bunch of guys hitting on me. Funny isn't it. I think it is because he's the one that got rid of me, not the other way around but being Mr. Rich Jaxin he doesn't want to see anyone messing with his property(a.k.a anything that he fucked) because he still loves me. Well Rich your doing a wonderful job of showing it. While your fucking your new slut do you thing of me. ASSHOLE!
Well, I always do it to myself. I want to be the one that takes care of everybody. At least now I know way, low self esteem. I figure, if I take care of them they will rely on me then they can't leave me because they need me to live. This is why I am still single. I need to fix that and I'm going to stay single until this little problem is resolved.
I just miss the hugs and kisses and cuddling. You know the shit that I can't remember ever being with out. Only when I dated Louie but that's a whole other fucked up chapter in my book. I am a very clingy person. I need that to survive. It's been hard with out it. That has to be the thing I miss the most. Lying in bed with him(Rich) cuddling all day and I mean all day.
Ok, I'll stop complaining. Everybody who reads his will probably think I'm insane. Well I'm not, I'm just suicidal. Trust me there is a difference. Well, I'm going to go get drunk at the bar. That's what I do now, every night. Yep, I go to Pinda Inn every night. It's great it's full of a bunch of other lonely, drunk losers. So I feel right at home.