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I'm slowly losing grip on... my academics? My motivation? My motivation to work on my academics? I'm failing philosophy because my prof won't put in certain grades until the very end (conveniently the grades I need to not fail). If it weren't for my lab grade, I'd be failing mechanics too. I'm on a downward slope to fail art (skipped 2.5 classes now). The only class I'm not doing horribly in is English because for some reason my professor really likes me and my piss-poor analytical writing.
I can't tell my mother any of this, because she'll only get mad. She doesn't quite grasp that things are pretty difficult for me. If I attempt anything more than a superficial conversation, like sharing some of my problems, she just gets angry and throws out a solution. Yeah that's great, but what if I just want some sympathy instead of being told to suck it up?
So, in light of all this, I've done what I've always done in the past, and turn to videos and games to bring me the joy I have left.
I've been watching subtitled Yugioh, even if 90% of it is HK subs, because the censoring and re-writing of the dub is unforgivable to me. The HK subs are surprisingly understandable + my little knowledge of Japanese, so it hasn't been too horrible. Just... 154 more episodes left haha.
I also bought Kirby's Epic Yarn to co-op with myboyfriend.gif, and then later bought Final Fantasy 13 to play on Tyler (Jon's son)'s PS3. I marathoned it last weekend, clocking in about 12 hours and halfway through the plot (minus sidequests/grinding). I can't stop thinking about it, and I anxiously await being able to play it again this weekend.
I feel lost and one of the few things keeping me going is the calendar above my desk. It makes November look so short, and December so close. If I can just get to the 16th, the last day of finals...
VerusMaya II
I can't tell my mother any of this, because she'll only get mad. She doesn't quite grasp that things are pretty difficult for me. If I attempt anything more than a superficial conversation, like sharing some of my problems, she just gets angry and throws out a solution. Yeah that's great, but what if I just want some sympathy instead of being told to suck it up?
So, in light of all this, I've done what I've always done in the past, and turn to videos and games to bring me the joy I have left.
I've been watching subtitled Yugioh, even if 90% of it is HK subs, because the censoring and re-writing of the dub is unforgivable to me. The HK subs are surprisingly understandable + my little knowledge of Japanese, so it hasn't been too horrible. Just... 154 more episodes left haha.
I also bought Kirby's Epic Yarn to co-op with myboyfriend.gif, and then later bought Final Fantasy 13 to play on Tyler (Jon's son)'s PS3. I marathoned it last weekend, clocking in about 12 hours and halfway through the plot (minus sidequests/grinding). I can't stop thinking about it, and I anxiously await being able to play it again this weekend.
I feel lost and one of the few things keeping me going is the calendar above my desk. It makes November look so short, and December so close. If I can just get to the 16th, the last day of finals...
VerusMaya II