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Oh I forgot but I also have a Tegaki! In an effort to get me back into doodling.
ANYWAY
10 things you wish you could say to ten different people right now:
❶ I am so proud of you. In the span of a year you have turned your life around and grown up into the genius I always knew you were. We've never talked much, but I want you to know I have always admired and looked up to you. Keep on going~
➋ We clash at times, and our interests differ a lot, but I owe you a lot for reaching out to me on that first day. I'm sorry I'm a jerk to you a lot of the times - you're going through some rough patches just like I am. I'm here for you.
➌ I wish our families didn't get in the way of our EPIC FRIENDSHIP. You never, ever fail to make me laugh, and was even there for me in my most embarrassing of times. ;~;
➍ I respect many different things from many different people, but in the end all I want to be is you when I grow older. You inspire me and give me hope for the future like no one else can. I will love you forever.
➎ Somehow I feel like I owe you an apology. I wish I didn't feel like I was stringing you along, but in the end I think I've experienced some things you haven't, and as such have come to a different conclusion. Perhaps if our situations were different, things would have worked out.
➏ In one's lifetime, one is lucky to meet even 2 people whose friendship lasts forever. I'm blessed beyond words to know you.
➐ Our relationship is strained a lot, and as such I believe we both suffer. But at the end of the day, you still mean so much to me - I wouldn't know what to do if I lost you. I hope as time goes on, things can smooth out for the both of us.
➑ You know I'm always there for you, but I wish you wouldn't chase so many guys at once. Take a step back and live for yourself - you'd be surprised how amazing it is. Take it from me, you won't want to go back. 8|
➒ I creepily admire a lot of people, but you're definitely at the top. If society didn't beat down the open expression of emotions I'd confess just how much you inspire me.
➓ ...I never knew you could be so crazy. Haha but it's a good thing. We can be wonderfully retarded together, can't we? Somehow you don't feel like a friend-of-a-friend to me, and for that I'm glad.
09 things about yourself:
❶ I'm quick to judge and I have no shame in doing so. I've found I'm a pretty good judge of character based on appearance and body language, and know what kind of person I can coexist with. Unfortunately too many people are busy regurgitating the phrase "don't judge a book by its cover" to realize that appearances do make a statement.
➋ I don't quite have a sexuality. I can make perverted jokes just as good, if not better, than anyone else, but beyond the humor it does nothing for me. I am interested in the intellectual and romantic aspect of relationships and want nothing to do with the physical.
➌ I'd rather hold conversations and hang out with adults than my peers. They tend to have more in depth talks and have actual things to share, as opposed to largely shallow conversations of people my age.
➍ Despite being in a better place (and with a better, healthier mindset) I'm still struggling to overcome my poor eating habits. For a good 2 - 3 years I refused to eat due to low self-esteem and a twisted view that I didn't deserve it. I suppose that might fall under the title of anorexia but it was not a weight-based decision nor as severe as the name implies.
➎ I am indifferent to religion. While I have no issue with, and in fact encourage, others to have a faith that supports them, when they decide to share it with me I have a problem. I strongly believe that religion is a personal matter that should be kept out of relationships and politics.
➏ Over time I have adapted a comedian personality, as I enjoy seeing people laugh. To me, laughter is one of the most important things in life and anyone who cannot find humor in their surrounding is truly missing something.
➐ My sharp and sometimes impersonal beliefs and ethics have a tendency to rub people the wrong way. However I simply see a need for objectivity in making decisions - it's nothing personal.
➑ I'm lucky for having a general idea of what I want to do with my life, as most of my peers have no clue, but no matter how many class credits I complete or portfolios I make, my dreams still feel childish and unobtainable in this insanely competitive world.
➒ As much as I'd like to claim that I have a rather stable mind and am largely unscathed from the event, I must admit that due to my father's passing I have a bit of a complex...
08 ways to win your heart:
❶ Speak to me on equal terms - don't talk down to me, basically.
➋ Make me laugh. Simple as that.
➌ Speak openly and honestly. Don't be afraid to say something just because you think it may offend me. I can take it.
➍ Don't take it personally and get all drama-queen on me if I snap at you. Chances are I just had a bad day.
➎ Humor me. I like some pretty weird and unusual stuff. Just roll with it.
➏ Make me cookies. *w*
➐ Be willing to have some "deep" conversations. I like questioning the how's and why's of life.
➑ Play videogames with me~
07 things that cross your mind a lot:
❶ My kitties <3
➋ I shouldn't do this (but I inevitably will).
➌ Sleep.
➍ [random song lyrics]
➎ What should I draw next?
➏ I don't want to do this.
➐ Friendship.
06 things you do before you fall asleep:
❶ Turn down my computer volume and turn off my monitor.
➋ If weekday: set my alarm. If weekend: spare a moment to praise the ability to sleep in.
➌ Brush teeth etc.
➍ Read/play my DS.
➎ Worry.
➏ Take a headcount of my cats.
05 people who mean a lot:
❶ my mother
➋ Jon
➌ Philip
➍ Jess
➎ Gramma Kitty :3
04 things you're wearing right now:
❶ t-shirt
➋ pants
➌ underwear?
➍ NOTHING.
03 songs that you listen to often (currently):
❶ Sunken Waltz - Calexico
➋ Colors - Kira Willey
➌ Peace of Mind - Boston
02 things you want to do before you die:
❶ Travel with my friends.
➋ Reach a state where I can say with no regrets "I am alive."
01 confession:
❶ I'd rather sleep with my cats than anyone else. :|
Internet, I return to school shortly and I really don't want to. Shock! *audience cue card reads: pity her*
VerusMaya II
ANYWAY
10 things you wish you could say to ten different people right now:
❶ I am so proud of you. In the span of a year you have turned your life around and grown up into the genius I always knew you were. We've never talked much, but I want you to know I have always admired and looked up to you. Keep on going~
➋ We clash at times, and our interests differ a lot, but I owe you a lot for reaching out to me on that first day. I'm sorry I'm a jerk to you a lot of the times - you're going through some rough patches just like I am. I'm here for you.
➌ I wish our families didn't get in the way of our EPIC FRIENDSHIP. You never, ever fail to make me laugh, and was even there for me in my most embarrassing of times. ;~;
➍ I respect many different things from many different people, but in the end all I want to be is you when I grow older. You inspire me and give me hope for the future like no one else can. I will love you forever.
➎ Somehow I feel like I owe you an apology. I wish I didn't feel like I was stringing you along, but in the end I think I've experienced some things you haven't, and as such have come to a different conclusion. Perhaps if our situations were different, things would have worked out.
➏ In one's lifetime, one is lucky to meet even 2 people whose friendship lasts forever. I'm blessed beyond words to know you.
➐ Our relationship is strained a lot, and as such I believe we both suffer. But at the end of the day, you still mean so much to me - I wouldn't know what to do if I lost you. I hope as time goes on, things can smooth out for the both of us.
➑ You know I'm always there for you, but I wish you wouldn't chase so many guys at once. Take a step back and live for yourself - you'd be surprised how amazing it is. Take it from me, you won't want to go back. 8|
➒ I creepily admire a lot of people, but you're definitely at the top. If society didn't beat down the open expression of emotions I'd confess just how much you inspire me.
➓ ...I never knew you could be so crazy. Haha but it's a good thing. We can be wonderfully retarded together, can't we? Somehow you don't feel like a friend-of-a-friend to me, and for that I'm glad.
09 things about yourself:
❶ I'm quick to judge and I have no shame in doing so. I've found I'm a pretty good judge of character based on appearance and body language, and know what kind of person I can coexist with. Unfortunately too many people are busy regurgitating the phrase "don't judge a book by its cover" to realize that appearances do make a statement.
➋ I don't quite have a sexuality. I can make perverted jokes just as good, if not better, than anyone else, but beyond the humor it does nothing for me. I am interested in the intellectual and romantic aspect of relationships and want nothing to do with the physical.
➌ I'd rather hold conversations and hang out with adults than my peers. They tend to have more in depth talks and have actual things to share, as opposed to largely shallow conversations of people my age.
➍ Despite being in a better place (and with a better, healthier mindset) I'm still struggling to overcome my poor eating habits. For a good 2 - 3 years I refused to eat due to low self-esteem and a twisted view that I didn't deserve it. I suppose that might fall under the title of anorexia but it was not a weight-based decision nor as severe as the name implies.
➎ I am indifferent to religion. While I have no issue with, and in fact encourage, others to have a faith that supports them, when they decide to share it with me I have a problem. I strongly believe that religion is a personal matter that should be kept out of relationships and politics.
➏ Over time I have adapted a comedian personality, as I enjoy seeing people laugh. To me, laughter is one of the most important things in life and anyone who cannot find humor in their surrounding is truly missing something.
➐ My sharp and sometimes impersonal beliefs and ethics have a tendency to rub people the wrong way. However I simply see a need for objectivity in making decisions - it's nothing personal.
➑ I'm lucky for having a general idea of what I want to do with my life, as most of my peers have no clue, but no matter how many class credits I complete or portfolios I make, my dreams still feel childish and unobtainable in this insanely competitive world.
➒ As much as I'd like to claim that I have a rather stable mind and am largely unscathed from the event, I must admit that due to my father's passing I have a bit of a complex...
08 ways to win your heart:
❶ Speak to me on equal terms - don't talk down to me, basically.
➋ Make me laugh. Simple as that.
➌ Speak openly and honestly. Don't be afraid to say something just because you think it may offend me. I can take it.
➍ Don't take it personally and get all drama-queen on me if I snap at you. Chances are I just had a bad day.
➎ Humor me. I like some pretty weird and unusual stuff. Just roll with it.
➏ Make me cookies. *w*
➐ Be willing to have some "deep" conversations. I like questioning the how's and why's of life.
➑ Play videogames with me~
07 things that cross your mind a lot:
❶ My kitties <3
➋ I shouldn't do this (but I inevitably will).
➌ Sleep.
➍ [random song lyrics]
➎ What should I draw next?
➏ I don't want to do this.
➐ Friendship.
06 things you do before you fall asleep:
❶ Turn down my computer volume and turn off my monitor.
➋ If weekday: set my alarm. If weekend: spare a moment to praise the ability to sleep in.
➌ Brush teeth etc.
➍ Read/play my DS.
➎ Worry.
➏ Take a headcount of my cats.
05 people who mean a lot:
❶ my mother
➋ Jon
➌ Philip
➍ Jess
➎ Gramma Kitty :3
04 things you're wearing right now:
❶ t-shirt
➋ pants
➌ underwear?
➍ NOTHING.
03 songs that you listen to often (currently):
❶ Sunken Waltz - Calexico
➋ Colors - Kira Willey
➌ Peace of Mind - Boston
02 things you want to do before you die:
❶ Travel with my friends.
➋ Reach a state where I can say with no regrets "I am alive."
01 confession:
❶ I'd rather sleep with my cats than anyone else. :|
Internet, I return to school shortly and I really don't want to. Shock! *audience cue card reads: pity her*
VerusMaya II