A sudden realization

[veruaffe]

It's a stupid one i might add

I dislike seeing happy people
quite possibly out of jealousy
Specially if they are old friends that you haven't talked to in ages
You know, those friends who you really didnt want to stop talking (but yeah eventually all people i meet ends up liek that *orz* )
and then you see them again all happy and stuff
and i look at myself all pathetic and depressive and lonely

sigh
There's a huge pain in my chest.. i hate this