Update: Been Forever
I'm going to start keeping a paper journal again. But until I go home and pick one up, this will have to do. So much has happened since the last update -- I don't know that I can turn it into a coherent narrative.
- boyfriend and i have had sex - lost our v-cards on v-day. it's a steep learning curve.
- passed the first part of three of the foreign service officer test. no one ever passes that the first try - i got really overwhelmed by the second part and didn't finish it.
- boyfriend's best female friend adores me. we talked at the last party at his Haus and she started crying because she was so happy that i was so good to him
- got accepted to the internship program in washington, dc. i dont know what i'm going to
- i think too much - i worry about what's going to happen after the summer when i go to DC between me and boyfriend
- i said the L word to him. he didn't say it back. i got a little bit upset, but didn't not expect it. he's new to this. at least if he feels like he's ready, he'll know that i'll say it back
- i'm staying in east lansing over the summer - i'm paying for my own sublet (250 a month) - i keep telling people it's because i want to try living on my own and i can't bear to live with my parents anymore, but i know it's really because i love boyfriend and i want to stay in EL with him so we can at least have the summer together
- and i'm ok with that
- because it's something that i want
- and for the first time in a very long time i'm so absolutely certain about what I want that i'm not going to pass it up
- at least it'll teach me to be responsible
- i turned 21. i bought my first legal beers at rite aid. classy
- reading marcus aurelius
- so fucking inspirational.
i miss writing and i miss feeling carefree.
- boyfriend and i have had sex - lost our v-cards on v-day. it's a steep learning curve.
- passed the first part of three of the foreign service officer test. no one ever passes that the first try - i got really overwhelmed by the second part and didn't finish it.
- boyfriend's best female friend adores me. we talked at the last party at his Haus and she started crying because she was so happy that i was so good to him
- got accepted to the internship program in washington, dc. i dont know what i'm going to
- i think too much - i worry about what's going to happen after the summer when i go to DC between me and boyfriend
- i said the L word to him. he didn't say it back. i got a little bit upset, but didn't not expect it. he's new to this. at least if he feels like he's ready, he'll know that i'll say it back
- i'm staying in east lansing over the summer - i'm paying for my own sublet (250 a month) - i keep telling people it's because i want to try living on my own and i can't bear to live with my parents anymore, but i know it's really because i love boyfriend and i want to stay in EL with him so we can at least have the summer together
- and i'm ok with that
- because it's something that i want
- and for the first time in a very long time i'm so absolutely certain about what I want that i'm not going to pass it up
- at least it'll teach me to be responsible
- i turned 21. i bought my first legal beers at rite aid. classy
- reading marcus aurelius
- so fucking inspirational.
i miss writing and i miss feeling carefree.