well I get to see my boy a little easier now
It was fun seeing Caden on tuesday. Teness let me see him. I supposedly get to see him tuesdays and thursdays and this sunday.....I am really looking forward to seeing him sunday cause I might have his room ready. Probably not though cause I was supposed to get this free carpet but who knows.....I am thinking about making hsi room not really themed ....I was going go with the ducks but all the ducks I gave him are at his mom's house......I'll just add a little bit of everything. I want to teach him guitar as soon as he can talk. I may or may not get joint custody of him but at least I will get some time with him. It will be fun to teach him things. It's kind of hard to spend time with him with everyone watching cause it's not personal time with my little man. I feel so bad for what has happened and the fact that his parents aren't together but, we will have to get along one day like his mom said....so she doesn't like me and that's ok. I don't like her and that's ok. IT hopefully will work out in the end. I kind of messed up lately and got depressed. I didn't care anymore cause I thought he wasn't mine for a bit there...well I was told...that was gut-wrenching....then when I just gave up...I got the phone call and now I saw him again. he looks a lot like his mom and me. We're kind of a weird mix. We'll see when he gets older. I still gotta develop those pictures of me and him. I was gonan go to trucking school or try the navy again cause I figured there was no use in sticking around. now I got a reason and hopefully I will work this out and get a good career in the near future so I know he will be ok financially.