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Sp tomorrow I start my first day at the Aveda Institute. I'm not too excited by the fact that my life is turning into 9-5. As most of you know im a late night, going out kind of person. I'm currently drinking wine in hopes it will make me tired....or just so drunk i pass out. on the other hand I am excited to start having a life. Starting school is going to get me out of my place and meeting people. I have been in Cleveland now for two months and I'm still extremely lonely. I did meet Joshua (see last post) and he means the world to me. P.S. yes i know its corny we have the same name but im getting used to it and even starting to like it. Unfortunately he has been really busy with work and have family issues so i havent been able to see him much. This was actually killing me inside. I couldnt understand why but everyday that we wasnt able to see me i felt my heart breaking. I believe I have figured out why. With no one else to turn to here I was feeling very empty, very alone. But i didnt pin point that until today. So still while it sucks that I cant see the man that was won my heart, i realize why ive been freaking out and putting added stress on his life that he just doesnt need right now. So its time to bite my tongue and fix the problem....get a life of my own. He means the world to me and I'll be damned if I will let my depressive moods ruin this!! Now i just have to prove to him that I'm worth falling for.