this is how i feel...deal with it.
so for some reason lately...i dont feel like im being myself, i feel like im being fake, trying to be someone im not..and i dont know why. i keep finding that im constantly second guessing myself and asking "what will people say if i do this..or wear that" and it's pissing me off because i feel like i have to be something im not for certain people to like me...and i know i shouldnt be doing this, but i cant help it, i want certain people to like me and everything...so i dont know..and i just want to warn everyone in advance that if i seem on edge or distant or not myself, im sorry.
it's not just that thats putting me on edge..im in a predicament that i truly dont understand...
basically, i like three girls..one most of you already know about, but for those who dont..she's someone i met recently that goes to my school..and i thought we had so much in common but i think i fell too fast and kinda freaked her out, and now i think she's bein kinda distant, i dont know, maybe im looking too deep into it...
the second...is a girl i've known for a while now...like 7th grade, and i kinda liked her then, but didnt want to admit it...and now for some reason those feelings are coming back but i dont think she likes me, i dont know, i could be wrong...but i just dont know.
the third girl...i dont even have the confidence to go up and talk to. she's in the same grade as me, i assume, and she goes to euclid too, but i just dont know..i mean she seems real cool, but i think im just afraid to get hurt again, i dont know....im just on the fence about the whole situation..
so NOW you know why i am the way i am lately...i just need to clear my head, and figure things out instead of sitting around and waiting things to come to me...i need to go out and make things happen..
it's not just that thats putting me on edge..im in a predicament that i truly dont understand...
basically, i like three girls..one most of you already know about, but for those who dont..she's someone i met recently that goes to my school..and i thought we had so much in common but i think i fell too fast and kinda freaked her out, and now i think she's bein kinda distant, i dont know, maybe im looking too deep into it...
the second...is a girl i've known for a while now...like 7th grade, and i kinda liked her then, but didnt want to admit it...and now for some reason those feelings are coming back but i dont think she likes me, i dont know, i could be wrong...but i just dont know.
the third girl...i dont even have the confidence to go up and talk to. she's in the same grade as me, i assume, and she goes to euclid too, but i just dont know..i mean she seems real cool, but i think im just afraid to get hurt again, i dont know....im just on the fence about the whole situation..
so NOW you know why i am the way i am lately...i just need to clear my head, and figure things out instead of sitting around and waiting things to come to me...i need to go out and make things happen..