to understand me better, you all ought to follow me home

[versusthezombie]

My stomach is upset. This is nothing new... my stomach is always upset. 99.9 percent of the time I am ailing from grievous stomach pains but, I conceal them, hide them, deal with them on my own time. This is who I am... This is who I have been for most of my life. It might have something to do with all of the nervousness... all of the anxiety... Something to do with the fact that I have trouble looking a pretty girl in the face. I am very good at diverting my gaze, studying walls... I am not very good at being myself... I don't know why I felt compelled to write about this tonight...

I've been looking so hard for a change... and honestly I'm beginning to think one isn't coming... I may have to take more descisive action. I'm sick of not knowing what to do...

Bleh.

love, mike.