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i guess there are a lot of little things that put me here...i can't really be sorry...it is our history and that makes us who we are...but i can't just pretend that i'm not bothered, hurt, mad, ...not a lot but a little, that when i see you...and know that you have been around but i don't rate anything, i don't much care to pretend that we are in a great place or that there was never anything between us...at least not from my end... that is to say that there was...you are the only person that i even considered beyond my exboyfriend and now i don't rate a phone call but you come to my house...dont' mistake this for anger, i'm not angry...i was mad about a lot last night(nothing you did), all hypocritical i'm sure, i don't negate that. but :
she hurt me
you hurt me
he hurt her and then
she hurt her
she lied to me
and then kept doing it
i'm not a slut and i don't appreciate being called one especially when i know more than i should. it is college but it's also peoples lives.
thats enough for now, i just thought i owed you some sort of reason...
on the lighter end of life...i feel so free on the back of a motorcycle...i talked to him...i drove it by myself...
he seemed lighter hearted today which keeps me going a bit, and after lastnight...i needed it....
i thank car and sar for being there and helping take care....i over reacted with john and him causing there never to be a party here again...that's a lie...i'll have plenty of parties and i will make it known that he's not welcome...don't disrespect me in such an asshole way again. You need to step back and look at who you are, or who you aren't. I'm so sad that i was fooled by you...you looked like a human being at first and what i see now is a bitter mass of vanity. I hope you find youself soon and let go.
she hurt me
you hurt me
he hurt her and then
she hurt her
she lied to me
and then kept doing it
i'm not a slut and i don't appreciate being called one especially when i know more than i should. it is college but it's also peoples lives.
thats enough for now, i just thought i owed you some sort of reason...
on the lighter end of life...i feel so free on the back of a motorcycle...i talked to him...i drove it by myself...
he seemed lighter hearted today which keeps me going a bit, and after lastnight...i needed it....
i thank car and sar for being there and helping take care....i over reacted with john and him causing there never to be a party here again...that's a lie...i'll have plenty of parties and i will make it known that he's not welcome...don't disrespect me in such an asshole way again. You need to step back and look at who you are, or who you aren't. I'm so sad that i was fooled by you...you looked like a human being at first and what i see now is a bitter mass of vanity. I hope you find youself soon and let go.