oh fuck
HEHE
Completely content= driving on 417- 70 mph- windows down- music off- that's right i said off- and heat pumpin- by myself at 2 in the am.
Irony
Completely content= the realization that those feelings...yeah the ones in the pit of my stomach...they are not evil- they are not wrong- they are in fact good, especially when they are understood
Completely content= looking in his eyes
you feel so good, just being around you feels so good
Content + sadness= Moving out
happiness= moving in by myself
sadness= lack of you
happiness= lack of him, it ...all the bullshit
sadness= my own skin
how can i settle in my skin when i scar so easily
tonight i felt great, the show went great and i was a part of it, and all i have wanted was for the show to go great when i was in it, just once..and it did, and i had a good night. I work with good people.
i was an artist who's father supported her but didn't really get it
I was a friend to a mother to be...but didn't want to be that close to her
I was a miss jr pagent winner, daughter
i was a sister, a good sister
i was in love with my gay best friend
he didn't see the show, that totally bums me out and now i know why...mister you have no idea what this means, and neither did i until now.
i don't cry anymore...and that makes me want to cry
i'm happy and i thought i was miserable
everything is good
hear no evil
see no evil
speak no evil
and it ha-za
Thanks to Chris for giving me shit last night
Thanks to the whole crew for making me feel beautiful again
Thanks to ... yeah that makes me happy. i missed us.
some people have the physical connections, infact i would say most do but i'm of a different class
the best connections i have are not vibrant and lustful, they are calm and it looks like one of my paintings, where there is this feeling and it's being swirled around in this mystic sea of color, which would be the world around us, and in the middle of all of that there is this one small spark. That spark is all we need, we don't have to see each other for extended periods of time and it will be as if we never left anytime we are together. We don't have to talk about anything extravagant or pertenent or anything for that matter and we will have said it all. We will be in a sea of people and they will all be talking to each other and we will be looking at each other. Looking not only in each others eyes but beyond that, so far beyond that, we are having the most interesting conversation of the night out of anyone. That spark is so powerful and lasting that if it could be bottled and sold we'd have the financial standing to show for our riches. I wouldn't trade one spark for all the sex and lust happiness could offer. The intellect it speaks to is far more valuable to me and so are you. The beauty of us.
Completely content= driving on 417- 70 mph- windows down- music off- that's right i said off- and heat pumpin- by myself at 2 in the am.
Irony
Completely content= the realization that those feelings...yeah the ones in the pit of my stomach...they are not evil- they are not wrong- they are in fact good, especially when they are understood
Completely content= looking in his eyes
you feel so good, just being around you feels so good
Content + sadness= Moving out
happiness= moving in by myself
sadness= lack of you
happiness= lack of him, it ...all the bullshit
sadness= my own skin
how can i settle in my skin when i scar so easily
tonight i felt great, the show went great and i was a part of it, and all i have wanted was for the show to go great when i was in it, just once..and it did, and i had a good night. I work with good people.
i was an artist who's father supported her but didn't really get it
I was a friend to a mother to be...but didn't want to be that close to her
I was a miss jr pagent winner, daughter
i was a sister, a good sister
i was in love with my gay best friend
he didn't see the show, that totally bums me out and now i know why...mister you have no idea what this means, and neither did i until now.
i don't cry anymore...and that makes me want to cry
i'm happy and i thought i was miserable
everything is good
hear no evil
see no evil
speak no evil
and it ha-za
Thanks to Chris for giving me shit last night
Thanks to the whole crew for making me feel beautiful again
Thanks to ... yeah that makes me happy. i missed us.
some people have the physical connections, infact i would say most do but i'm of a different class
the best connections i have are not vibrant and lustful, they are calm and it looks like one of my paintings, where there is this feeling and it's being swirled around in this mystic sea of color, which would be the world around us, and in the middle of all of that there is this one small spark. That spark is all we need, we don't have to see each other for extended periods of time and it will be as if we never left anytime we are together. We don't have to talk about anything extravagant or pertenent or anything for that matter and we will have said it all. We will be in a sea of people and they will all be talking to each other and we will be looking at each other. Looking not only in each others eyes but beyond that, so far beyond that, we are having the most interesting conversation of the night out of anyone. That spark is so powerful and lasting that if it could be bottled and sold we'd have the financial standing to show for our riches. I wouldn't trade one spark for all the sex and lust happiness could offer. The intellect it speaks to is far more valuable to me and so are you. The beauty of us.