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Why would Juudai do something like that? He was the one who always said that he wouldn't care if... Or was that a lie? Did I fall into a trap I should have seen coming?
I can't believe it. I just can't... believe that it happened at all.
If that's the way that it's going to be, then it's my fault. My responsibility, and my cross to bear. Fitting punishment. I won't let Juudai sacrifice himself for me, if that's what he was trying to do, though I have my doubts. And I won't let this conflict with Yubel turn into his problem. I can't.
... Then, that's all there is to it. I'll distance myself. That should keep Yubel content for the time being, I hope.
It feels too much like I'm running away
[[ backdated to before the sticky event and after this entry. Um... Johan's up for sticking, by the by, although lately he's been fairly reclusive compared to normal standards. ]]
Why would Juudai do something like that? He was the one who always said that he wouldn't care if... Or was that a lie? Did I fall into a trap I should have seen coming?
I can't believe it. I just can't... believe that it happened at all.
If that's the way that it's going to be, then it's my fault. My responsibility, and my cross to bear. Fitting punishment. I won't let Juudai sacrifice himself for me, if that's what he was trying to do, though I have my doubts. And I won't let this conflict with Yubel turn into his problem. I can't.
... Then, that's all there is to it. I'll distance myself. That should keep Yubel content for the time being, I hope.
It feels too much like I'm running away
[[ backdated to before the sticky event and after this entry. Um... Johan's up for sticking, by the by, although lately he's been fairly reclusive compared to normal standards. ]]