Thinking of romance & women: past, present, & future

[versasrev]

So, I think I might have a women friend that has feelings for me. I think that is good in that I like people to have feelings for me, but bad in that I really don't have any feelings for her other than feeling good about myself that someone likes me. Same feeling I get when a gay guy hits on me; flattering, although nothing more. Coupled (that's kind of a pun, you'll figure it out latter) with that situation I'm attracted to two women right now, possibly three. I've like both for about a year for one, and a year and a half - two years for the other. To be honest the one I've known for a year I'm really not sure why I like her, aside from physically; however I really do like the other physically and actually find very intellectually intriguing. This is mentally the same problem I had on valentines day, except one is a different women this time.......................................................................................I've got it I'll send her secret admirer post cards...................still though which one........................................................................................................Oh I've got it..........but I wont tell..........................and no one reading this journal better either...............................because I hate it when my romantic plans don't work out, it just gets under my skin and stays there for years...................................................as a matter of fact the last time it happened was about 8 or 9 months ago..............................man that time was really annoying, because I liked her from the moment I laid eyes on her, maybe I still do but it's way to muted; time has definitely sank that ship (and other reasons)............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................I'm done.

An experiment in stream of conscience typing, for your enjoyment (hopefully).