I feel like such a woman, a needy woman... and im not

Jan 13, 2009 07:10

Vacation in georgia with chad was probably one of the best vacations ive ever had... ever. I didnt really know what to expect from this trip, but it exceeded any expectations i had by a milestone. As soon as i got off the airplane and saw his smiling face, i instantly knew it was going to be an amazing trip and knew it was going to be hard to leave.
Seeing him again for the first time again set my head in twelve different directions. It was the happiest i had been since summer. Every single day i spent in georgia with him was chock full of adventures. We went to the zoo, civil war sites, the atlantic ocean, granny's house on the plantation, went to orlando, Universal studios, visited another urban, clubbing with his old friends, krystals, florida outlets, the river, atlanta, an art museum, the world of coca cola, cnn, the aquarium, another zoo, and then back to savannah. I dont remember how many times we got lost, especially when gary (his gps system) broke. But then again it wouldnt be a normal day with chad and veronica if there was no getting lost involved. Savannah is a very beautiful town, not much to do, but being with him there made everything seem all that much better.
It feels so weird to be home. I feel out of place, granted its only been two days since ive been here in cali, but I feel empty already. I miss waking up in his arms, all the little kisses, late night movie seshs, making fun of him, long car rides, holding hands, venting about life, our petty arguments, sharing everything and just spending time with him in general. I feel like im back to square one, just like when he left for savannah in september, 4 months ago, back to being all depressed (cant eat, cant sleep, cant talk, not wanting to do anything) type of shit. Im not the type of person who needs someone to be happy. I dont cry over boys, I dont do this. He'll be back in April for another visit, hopefully this time the 3 months wait will go by faster than last time. After all i do have a free ticket to go and see him again... maybe ill cheat and go and see him before april, i dont know. we'll see...























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