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The past year has been spent like this:
* preparing for the transition to PSU in the fall. Mass amounts of paperwork, trivial forms and hoops to jump through, and the sorrow of saying goodbye to a familiar routine. I *like* the community college; I am comfortable there. I don't like change.
* trying (and mostly failing. but still trying) to make sense of the relationship/non-relationship snarl my life has evolved into. It's the age-old chicken/egg question: which is worse: the meager pittance being offered to me or my willingness to put up with it for so long? I don't think the answer matters too much in the long run, as long as I can see the problems with both.
* working. Endlessly working. I have been working seven days a week since school ended in early June. I work two customer service jobs so my days are filled with meeting the ridiculous demands of others. I am a logical person, it becomes nearly a physical pain to be confronted with the idiocy of the general public on a daily basis.
* drinking. (see the above starred paragraphs for reasons why this is.)
But there is hope, light on the horizon. I am officially a college junior. In theory, I can register for classes sometime in the next month and will be offered financial assistance. One of my jobs is seasonal, and has a fun "summer camp" feel to it. Time is spent outdoors, and I am able to find solace in my periodic encounter with a roly poly mole, chatty squirrel or particularly noisy crow. It seems possible I may have attracted the potential romantic interest of not one, not two, but perhaps three individuals. Three largely intelligent and interesting individuals. It's tricky. I don't expect much to actually develop, but it is fun to imagine what if.....
* preparing for the transition to PSU in the fall. Mass amounts of paperwork, trivial forms and hoops to jump through, and the sorrow of saying goodbye to a familiar routine. I *like* the community college; I am comfortable there. I don't like change.
* trying (and mostly failing. but still trying) to make sense of the relationship/non-relationship snarl my life has evolved into. It's the age-old chicken/egg question: which is worse: the meager pittance being offered to me or my willingness to put up with it for so long? I don't think the answer matters too much in the long run, as long as I can see the problems with both.
* working. Endlessly working. I have been working seven days a week since school ended in early June. I work two customer service jobs so my days are filled with meeting the ridiculous demands of others. I am a logical person, it becomes nearly a physical pain to be confronted with the idiocy of the general public on a daily basis.
* drinking. (see the above starred paragraphs for reasons why this is.)
But there is hope, light on the horizon. I am officially a college junior. In theory, I can register for classes sometime in the next month and will be offered financial assistance. One of my jobs is seasonal, and has a fun "summer camp" feel to it. Time is spent outdoors, and I am able to find solace in my periodic encounter with a roly poly mole, chatty squirrel or particularly noisy crow. It seems possible I may have attracted the potential romantic interest of not one, not two, but perhaps three individuals. Three largely intelligent and interesting individuals. It's tricky. I don't expect much to actually develop, but it is fun to imagine what if.....