Identifying the Problem
Someone once told me that half the solution of working through a depression, is identifying the problem - or the triggers, if you want.
I've managed to identify one of my main triggers, and I suppose it doesn't come as a surprise that one of my main triggers is economy. Money. Or, rather, the lack of.
Haven't had a job in over a month now. The only reason I'm not already in such a panic attack that I would need a paper bag to breathe, is because I've received my holiday bonus, which I earned up last year, so it turned out to be pretty decent. In addition, I'll be getting my tax refunds at some point, and I've also had a couple of Airbnb guests.
However, if I don't find a job by the end of the month, I'll start panicking. Really panicking. And as we all know, when panic meets depression, it renders you completely useless - unable to do a damn thing, other than lie on your couch or bed and stare at the wall and swallow those huge lumps of anxiety which are blocking your airways.
So yeah. Really hoping someone will give me a job within the next two weeks. I've been sending out more applications than I can count, and the only thing I've got to show for it is one interview. One lousy interview, and I didn't get the job in the end.
I think I'm gonna go and throw up now.
I've managed to identify one of my main triggers, and I suppose it doesn't come as a surprise that one of my main triggers is economy. Money. Or, rather, the lack of.
Haven't had a job in over a month now. The only reason I'm not already in such a panic attack that I would need a paper bag to breathe, is because I've received my holiday bonus, which I earned up last year, so it turned out to be pretty decent. In addition, I'll be getting my tax refunds at some point, and I've also had a couple of Airbnb guests.
However, if I don't find a job by the end of the month, I'll start panicking. Really panicking. And as we all know, when panic meets depression, it renders you completely useless - unable to do a damn thing, other than lie on your couch or bed and stare at the wall and swallow those huge lumps of anxiety which are blocking your airways.
So yeah. Really hoping someone will give me a job within the next two weeks. I've been sending out more applications than I can count, and the only thing I've got to show for it is one interview. One lousy interview, and I didn't get the job in the end.
I think I'm gonna go and throw up now.